Story 31 – The Last Minutes of Diamond Terry

They called him Diamond Terry. They said he was the nastiest, fiercest, most not to be fucked with gang boss in town.

Today, he had received a surprise visitor. A man he had been looking for for months.

A man he was taking no chances with. Arms handcuffed behind his back and forced to sit cross legged on the floor of his opulent and tastefully furnished office.

“Well, you’ve certainly been very violent, haven’t you?” Terry asked “I’ve been wondering who the hell you are for six months and in answer, you walk up to my front door and tell my guards that you’re behind everything?”

Terry laughed, the disbelief in his voice making it shake with anger.

The sitting man had been wearing a thin jacket over a black t-shirt when he arrived, but the guards had relieved him of that after checking for hidden weapons. Dark trousers and well worn combat boots completed his ensemble.

The man was slightly under six feet tall, he had the muscles of a manual worker and not a gym rat, but even so, he was not the towering monster Terry had been expecting. The dark beast stalking through his business for the last half year, carving a path of blood and fire and costing him near on a hundred million dollars worth of product.

He could not be the dark shadow that stalked him, not by himself. It was too unbelievable.

“You’re the one who has killed, how many is it Chris?” Terry asked.

“Sixty three.” The giant, shaven headed chief of security answered.

“Yes, sixty three men. By yourself. Gunshots, knives, explosives. Something particularly nasty with hot bleach. You’re really are quite the renaissance man when it comes to creative and violent deaths, aren’t you?”

“I try.” The man finally spoke.

Terry ran his tongue over his elongated diamond canine, it was his signature accessory. The man didn’t sound proud or scared. He was matter of fact. Not attempting to convince Terry of something they all knew he could not have done alone. Which, perversely, made him that touch more convincing.

“Was there a specific reason you decided to wage a one man war on my operation? Or are you a genuine do-gooder? Just a somewhat more violent specimen than the average charity fundraiser?”

The man looked up, an expression of surprise on his face “You don’t know? I mean, I did leave very specific messages with the survivors. All of the survivors.”

Terry looked to Chris who shrugged “You know how we operate, they said it was one man. We didn’t believe them. We killed them.”

Terry nodded, enjoying the sharp scratch of his tooth on his tongue “True.” He turned to the kneeling avenging angel “You see, we don’t have any truck with liars. So when my men are found and they tell us one man stormed the stash house and when my people tried to kill him all of their guns suddenly had the safety on or they threw their weapons away without a reason, well, we don’t take that seriously.”

The kneeling man laughed and looked to his right, at the landscape of Chicago hanging on the wall. Terry had always liked that painting because of the cold atmosphere it portrayed.

“I told you. I said they’ll call them crazy.” The man said to the painting.

Terry, Chris and the two guards all looked to the painting, searching for a reason why the man would speak to it.

“I think we’ll call you crazy, too. That’s not even a panting of a person. If you are going to feign insanity, at least be a little believable.”

The man looked up at Terry “I wasn’t talking to the painting.” He paused, cocking his head to one side, listening to something. “That would certainly be the polite thing to do.” He looked back at Terry and grinned, it was terrifying because it was genuinely happy.

“Would you like to know why all this happened and why you’re all going to die in the next five minutes?”

Terry rolled his eyes to let the lunatic on the floor know he didn’t care about his sob story, but it was an act. There was something seriously off about this man on the floor. He was outnumbered, by people who were definitely going to kill him. His hands and ankles were bound, he was unarmed, he was helpless and defenceless. And yet, and yet, he was supremely confident that victory was on his side. He had to be mad. But madmen and methheads were the worst kind of people to fight. Better to just end it now.

“No.” Terry said, making a snap decision. He pulled the Desert Eagle from his jacket pocket, pointed it and pulled the trigger.

Nothing happened.

The man smiled.

Terry checked the gun, the safety was on, even though he’d swear he flicked it off as he drew. Never mind, he flicked the safety off, pointed and pulled the trigger.

Another lack of gunshots failed to fill the air.

The safety was back on.

The kneeling man said “I wouldn’t try it again.”

Unbelievable. Terry flicked the safety off, held it off and pointed again.

“Third time’s the charm.” He laughed.

As he pulled the trigger Terry felt his arm being jerked and the shot missed the man on the ground, punching through Chris’ stomach instead. The large caliber bullet punching a huge hole in his security chief’s back, spraying blood and spine over the imported rug on the floor.

“The fuck, Terry?” Chris gasped in shock before dropping to his knees and holding his stomach. Locking eyes the two men stared at each other in disbelief, killer and victim, uncomprehending at how this had come to be.

Chris widened his eyes, focusing his gaze just beyond Terry, but before he could explain just what it was he saw, his eyes rolled up into his skull and he collapsed face down on the rug.

Terry couldn’t believe that had just happened.

“I did warn you.” The man said, completely unconcerned about the events of the past few seconds.

With a shaking hand, Terry placed the gun down on his desk and quietly spoke to the other two guards “Kill this motherfucker. Right here. Right now.”

He looked into the man’s eyes, the son of a bitch was still smiling.

“That’s another bad choice.”

Terry didn’t reply, he just watched the guards pull their guns, point them at the man and then look for final confirmation.

Terry nodded.

The guards fired.

The man slid backwards, moving unnaturally as he pulled his untied hands from his back.

The shots missed.

The guards reacted slower than the man who slid between them. They pivoted as he drove his elbows into their weight bearing knees. The guards stumbled, ther guns slipping from their hands as they did. Both pistols flew into the man’s awaiting hands. He fired four times, twice from each gun.

Terry could only watch, open mouthed as his men died from a neat double tap for each of them.

The man stood up, his ankles miraculously free now, too. He pointed his acquired pistols at Terry, arms steady.

“You should have listened to my story. You’d have got a few minutes more life out of it.” He smiled “Plus, you’d have got a story.”

Terry nervously ran his tongue over his diamond tooth and put his hands up “Can’t we come to some arrangement?”

The guards’ guns never strayed from targeting Terry’s face “Like what? What outcome do you think will be acceptable to both of us? I’m here to kill you, that’s my only condition. What can you counter that with?”

He was going to die. This couldn’t be right. Two minutes ago he’d been King. His enemy bound before him and surrounded by his best. Now his life was measured in moments instead of years.

“How has this happened?” Terry couldn’t keep the frustration from his voice.

The man smiled “Well, you didn’t want the story before, now I don’t want to tell you.”

He stopped and looked off towards the painting again before nodding.

“Yeah, I mean, I could show you.”

“You can show me how you jammed my gun and made me shoot by head of security?”

“Yeah, think of it as a going away present.”

Confusion built on the frustration “Going away? Where am I…”

He didn’t finish the sentence, instead the guns fired and Terry stoppped at the noise, shocked by the suddenness of them.

For an instant he didn’t register the pain. Then the moment of shock went away and he fell, clutching his stomach.

Terry screamed. In pain. In fear. In frustration and confusion.

By the time Terry finished falling to the ground, his killer had already dropped the guns onto the bodies of the guards.

“Focus your eyes over that way.” He told Terry, pointing towards the painting.

Gripping his perforated guts, futilely trying to keep the blood inside him, Terry attempted to focus on the painting. The pain made it hard. It was blurry where it had once been crisp.

Not blurry.

Obscured by something translucent.

Something solid now.

A man.

A handsome Latino man who smiled at him.

“Who’s that?” Terry gasped through the pain, not understanding.

“His name was Edgar.”

Terry was getting faint “I don’t know an Edgar.” He mumbled.

He watched Edgar walk over to his killer and give him a powerful, passionate kiss.

Terry wanted to make some joke about the man not being his killer’s brother, but air was getting hard to keep. Hard to breathe. Can’t waste on bad jokes.

The world was dimming and he watched his killer kiss Edgar’s fingers and say something about “One day.”

One day what? Terry needed to know. His brain was processing the world too slowly.

Why were the colours fading out of everything?

His killer left the room and Edgar went with him.

They had called him Diamond Terry. They said he was the nastiest, fiercest, most not to be fucked with gang boss in town.

He died alone, confused and scared. Never knowing why.

© Robert Spalding 2021

Story 30 – The Expected Return

Dusk was just settling over the lake, a light shade of red easing across the water like paint in a bowl. I thought it was nicely creepy, the start to an old Hammer movie perhaps. Lucy thought it was horrible, started talking about algae and refraction indexes, things way over my head.

“You can’t just enjoy it for what it is?” I asked her.

“What it is is a demonstration of the effects of waste products and lack of careful management.” She told me. “You mean can’t I enjoy it for what it seems like and it seems like a creeping swell of blood. Which isn’t the romantic image you think it is.” She nudged me with her shoulder to show she wasn’t taking any of this seriously.

I wrapped my arm around her shoulders and gave her a squeeze, enjoying the moment, just the two of us, relaxing together. No roommates or parents trying to distract us. We’d both turned our phones off for an hour, giving us this time together. The blood and algae lake moment might have started things off weird, but the moments that followed it were exactly what we were after.

Which is obviously why the universe decided to interrupt us as soon as it could.

“You should know you aren’t the first couple to find this lake romantic.” A voice spoke from behind us which made us jump, both of us let out a yelp of shock.

Turning to see who had spoken, my first thought was that I was looking upon the perfect Falstaff. He had a ruddy red face, was generously proportioned and his eyes twinkled with mischief.

“I do apologise. I did not mean to scare you.” His voice was the opposite of his appearance and I knew without a doubt that someone, somewhere, had given him the nickname Droopy for it. It was melancholic and resigned.

“Well, you did. A cough to announce yourself first would have been nice.” Lucy berated him and he nodded in agreement.

I took him in properly now, a brown jacket, thick glasses perched precariously on his nose, grey-ish trousers, he was the archetypal university professor.

“History buff, are you?” I ventured.

He gave me a puzzled look “How could you know? I am Professor Henry Archimede and history is indeed my area of expertise. I merely look into the local history as a hobby, so yes, you could call me a buff I suppose.”

Another man might have given a self deprecating chuckle at the end of that speech, not so Professor Archimede, he ended it with a disappointed sigh.

“Why did you say we weren’t the first couple to find the lake romantic? I should think not. I wouldn’t think there’s a single credible patch of land in all of England where we would be the first couple to find it romantic.” Lucy had locked into an interrogation mode. I knew from experience that these were hard to break her out of.

To my shock, Professor Archimede nodded respectfully at her, one colleague to another of sorts. “Absolutely. It was, I’m told, an ice breaker opener. Something to relax the students into the lecture. I was practising my technique on you, I apologise.”

Now Lucy nodded in agreement, respectful of the honesty “A fine choice. Perhaps it would work better on those expecting a lecture? The content was fine, the manner of its delivery was less than optimal.”

“I take your point and thank you for your input.”

I felt left out of this comedy of manners and was compelled to inject myself into it “Professor Archimede, if that was an opener, then you were prepared to give a history lesson to us? I sense a love story lurking behind your ice breaker. We would love to hear it.” I didn’t even glance at Lucy to check, I knew that she loved learning new things and I was a sucker for century old gossip.

The Professor, for his part, was taken aback by my enthusiasm. I sensed that despite his love for his subject, the monotone depressiveness of his voice kept his students at arms length when he would gladly welcome them in.

“Would you tell us, Professor? I certainly would love to learn something about this lake, I don’t know any history of it.” Lucy chimed in in agreement.

Taking a moment to compose himself, Archimede drew himself up to his full height, just a touch under six foot, sucked in a deep breath and gestured for us to look out at the lake, the blood glow of the setting sun fading to a lighter shade on the waters.

“See there, the small island, not the barren rise to your left my dear,” that was to Lucy, “the wooded one nearer the centre.”

We made noises to let him know we did.

“Keep your eyes on it, let me know if you see anything while I speak. It is the place I have come to view and I will tell you the story of why.”

Lucy and I half turned from the Professor to keep an eye on the island. It was small, maybe fifteen metres long, probably not much more than that wide, but it was hard to tell from our angle. It was completely covered in trees, living ones, their leaves still green.

“To the north of this park, just past what is now the service station and Burger King, there was a castle. Well, a fortified building but we may as well call it a castle for the romantic purposes of the story. It was home to one of the local lords and his daughter Vendramina. She was named for her maternal grandmother, a Venetian lady of some renown. As such, the little lady was drawn to the lake, the only large body of water nearby, something passed on from her mother and grandmother perhaps? It was by the lake that she met the boy, Andrew, a simple farmhand who also enjoyed spending his rare free time by the water. As happens, the youngsters, mostly isolated from others their own age, fell in love.”

“That’s very sweet. Not much of a story though.” I spoke up, being the smart arse I can’t stop being at times, despite my best wishes.

I deserved the icy look from Lucy and the sad one from Archimede, I had deflated him and felt instantly sorry.

“Please, accept my apologies, Professor. My mouth moves faster than my brain and my manners far too often. I’m enjoying your story and if there is more, would love to hear it.”

He looked at me suspiciously, I couldn’t blame him.

“Please continue, what happened with Vendramina and Andrew? What does the island have to do with it all?” Lucy implored him to continue.

The Professor smiled at Lucy “I can never say no to someone who wishes to learn.”

I swear his voice was just a touch less melancholic.

“I’m sure you have both been exposed to enough about class and romance tales and history of the treatment of women to guess at the next part. Vendramina and Andrew were told they could not wed. She was to be married off to another lord, being the only real thing of value her father had. Andrew set out to seek his fortune, planning to return before her marriage. Where he went and what he did is not found in any record. Remember, this was but a minor lord and Andrew was barely worth recording the birth of. The young lovers agreed that if Vendramina did not hear from Andrew before the wedding, she must go ahead with it, for he would have failed and may perhaps be dead. The weeks passed and the wedding day drew closer, but there was no word from Andrew. The last week began and still no word. Three days to go and Vendramina sent her maids out to seek word, keeping their absence a secret from her father. The next day the first maid returned and said that Andrew had joined a mercenary band and was presumed dead. But Vendramina did not believe her, thinking this maid was too familiar with her father to tell her the truth. The next night her second maid returned and said that Andrew had sailed to France on a ship to make his fortune trading, but the ship was reported lost at sea. Vendramina could almost believe this, but the maid had no explanation for where Andrew had gotten the supplies to trade.”

I found myself holding Lucy’s hand, the both of us nodding in agreement at the young girl’s thoughts, caught up in her story despite the monotone delivery of it. There was something hypnotic about the Professor’s voice as time progressed.

“The day of the wedding dawned and the last of the maids had not returned, nor was there word from Andrew. The morning was spent in prayer and preparation, but Vendramina still hoped for word of her true love. Just before they were due to leave for the church, the final maid arrived. Upon seeing her mistress, she took the girl aside from the other maids and spoke to her. We do not know what she told her, but it must have been something to do with the return of Andrew for Vendramina claimed to feel unwell and retired to her bedroom to refresh with only the last returned maid. After some time her father sent the other maids in to bring her to the church, furious at the delay. But when they entered her bedroom, they found only the last maid, asleep on the bed, exhausted beyond measure. They could not rouse her for quite some time, she steadfastly stayed asleep until the sun began to set.”

Professor Archimede gestured to the lake where the final light of the sun glittered on the peaks of the small ripples its surface “A time, very much like now. When the maid was finally awoken, the father forced her to tell where her mistress had gone . But the maid was faithful and they could only get her to say that the lovers were being reunited. Furious, the father sent her from the house, vowing no other should take her in and so she vanishes from history and our story, taking her message with her. The day was ruined, the groom furious until Vendramina’s father concocted a lie about her being abducted and the need to search. The groom, who was, by all accounts, a decent man if not a good one, set about gathering a search and hunting party. Vowing to save his future bride. They searched, but no sign was found of the thieves, for there were none, and no sign was seen of the bride. Their search was cut short by a terrible storm, one of the worst those who wrote of it had ever seen.”

“Where did she go?” This time it was Lucy who couldn’t contain herself. Her outburst was at least appreciated by the Professor, he gave a smile in return.

“It was two days later that they received word of a girl in a wedding dress running through this park towards the lake. With a clue, the father rushed here and called for his daughter, all of the household came with him and called her name over and over. But she did not reply. They did attract the attention of a couple of men, probably poachers as they were not named in the records. The man asked why they were all shouting by the lake. When it was explained to them, the men said they had seen a girl in a wedding dress row herself to that island. She had not secured the boat and it drifted away from her. While the men had discussed how to get the girl back, they saw another boat rowing towards the island, a lone young man pulling at the oars. Was this Andrew? The men did not know, for they had seen neither of the young lovers before that day. Before the man could reach the island the storm arrived. It churned the lake, creating waves on what had been still and quiet waters only moments before. The man and the girl cried out to one another, so close, yet so far. Her beckoning, him imploring she remain. And then the boat was capsized and the man was gone. The watchers could do nothing for the girl, they had no boat and the waters were too rough even if they did. So they sought shelter and warmth through alcohol and they did not think to return until this moment. Vendramina’s father was distraught, his daughter, alone on that island for two days after the storm? It did not bear thinking about. Quickly a boat and rowers were fetched and the raced to the island, only to find it deserted, only a few torn scraps of a white dress were evidence the girl had indeed been there. Her whereabouts were unknown. Had she attempted to swim back to shore only to flounder in her dress? Had she walked into the waters to join her lover? Was there some other person involved and even now she remained warm and cared for? None knew and never were they to find out.”

Lucy sniffed and even I found a tear in my eye. The story was an old one, familiar in places, but it still connected.

“Is that why you come here?” I asked “To remember a girl and boy who once loved?”

“No. I come to see if their ghosts will appear to me.”

That brought me up short, even Lucy was shocked.

“Ghosts?” The scepticism was back in her voice.

“I knew this part you wouldn’t believe, no-one ever ones.” The lightening of his voice was gone, the heavy melancholia was back. “They say that the girl in the white dress appears just after sunset, waiting for the boy in the boat. Not every day, just sometimes. So I come by to see if I can see them. Maybe call out to them. End the cycle of their disappointment.”

I looked back at the island, wondering if all this could be true.

“There’s someone on the island!” Lucy gasped.

I squinted, wishing I hadn’t let vanity overrule sense and worn my glasses. In my defence I had expected to be looking at Lucy, who was near to me. I hadn’t planned on needing to see a girl in the distance out here.

“I see white.” That was almost excitement in the Professor’s voice.

“So do I.” Said Lucy.

So did I, but was that enough white for a dress.

All three of us peered intently at the island as the very last sunlight faded and starlight was all we had to see by.

When oars splashed to our left we all three let out a small yelp. A boat was being inexpertly rowed towards the island and was that a single man pulling at the oars?

It was.

“Its true. They come back.” The Professor breathed the words softly, not wanting to spoil the moment.

Then a voice rang out over the water. A girl’s voice. From the island. Clear as day across the open expanse we heard her cry out “Oi! Kev! You better not have forgotten my chips!”

The moment was broken and Lucy and I released a laugh to drain the tension. Then I remembered how hopeful the Professor had been.

“I’m sorry it wasn’t them.” I told him.

His shoulders hunched and he turned away “It never is. No matter how many times I come here, they never return.”

Lucy and I turned back to the lake and watched Kev clumsily climb out of the boat and hand something to the girl.

“Hey, at least this love story has a happy ending. It looks like he remembered her chips.” I turned back to share this little bit of joy with the Professor, but I couldn’t see him. What I did see was a tall, stringy looking man running towards us, three cameras strung about his neck and a video camera with mounted light shining on us.

“Is he here?” The man gasped as he stopped short of us.

“Who?” I asked.

“Professor Archimede. He often appears to couples at sunset. I didn’t spot you until it was late.”

“Yeah, he was here just a moment ago. I’m not sure where he’s gone to be honest.” I told the man, making sure to put myself between Lucy and this strange man.

“Damn it all to hell!” The man yelled. “I always miss him.”

Lucy and I took a step back “Hey, its fine. Just see him at his work or something. You don’t need to other him at his leisure time.”

The man looked at me, puzzled then understanding change his face and he was sympathetic “Oh, you didn’t realise.”

“Realise what?” Demanded Lucy, fed up of me taking the lead.

“Professor Archimede died in 1934. Had a heart attack while waiting for some ghost to appear. Now he’s the ghost of this lake, always waiting for the girl in white, never seeing her.”

© Robert Spalding 2020

Story 29 – Changing States

The Death of Lou Sheen

Of all the ways Lou Sheen expected his life to end, impaled on a tree branch was low down the list. The fact that he had a list at all tells you a little something about the kind of man he was.

The heatwave just would not break and Lou was feeling cramped in his flat, unable to venture on his daily walks due to a slightly exaggerated fear that his shoes would melt if he tried. For as long as he could remember an afternoon walk along the roads near his village had been a fixed part of his routine.

Working from home as a remote consultant, Lou set his own schedule. Which meant that every day at two thirty in the afternoon, he pulled on his boots and set off on a ninety minute walk. He always followed the same route, the same pace. He walked alone, blissfully disconnected from the world.

Then the heatwave came, the highest temperatures in a hundred years. The first day he had attempted to stick to schedule, but was forced to turn back after ten minutes, driven he’d in sweat and finding his vision blurry.

Lou had walked during heatwaves before, but a combination of the height of the temperature and his acclimatisation of his air conditioned home had left him vulnerable.

For a week, as the temperature continued to rise, Lou avoided his walks.

He missed them, missed the solace of being alone and unreachable. He had worked hard to cultivate a life for himself that did not require much interaction with others. Lou was perfectly capable of being in company and contributing to conversations, he just disliked doing so. Ever since he was a kid, Lou Sheen had preferred his own headspace to he noise created by others.

Eight days after his first, unsuccessful attempt, Lou couldn’t wait any longer, he had to get out of his flat, away from the neighbours who said hello when they saw him. Away from the calls to clients. Away from the messages from prospective clients asking for a consultation.

Deciding that his routine had already been broken by the heat, Lou reasoned that it was only reasonable for him to adjust the time of his walk. He would go once it got dark, wait for the night to leech the heat away from the ground and make it bearable.

He didn’t want to waste an attempt, so Lou decided he would wait until eleven at night to leave for his walk. That way he would still return home in time to be in bed at one.

He knew that leaving at that time would not actually stop the people who made contact with him during the day, but he could at least pretend that he was avoiding the unexpected calls which he had only received twice in his life. Each one to inform him of the death of a parent. First his mother, then his father. With no other relatives to pass way and no close friends anyone would bother to inform him of their passing, he knew that the chances of another late night call were extremely remote. It was the existence of their possibility that allowed him to mentally justify the late night walk to himself.

Leaving his phone on the coffee table, Lou took only his keys and a torch with him.

Being a regular day walker, Lou did not own any fluorescent clothing. He had never needed any before and didn’t consider their usefulness during his first night walk. He believed that his torch would be enough to let any night drivers see him.

If Lou’s walks were along pavements, his supposition may well have been correct. However, living as he did in a village in the South East of England, many of the roads he walked along were country roads. Lined on either side by hedges taller than him, they had no pavements for walking. They als followed a winding path, with many blind corners. This was fine during the day, drivers tended to be regular commuters and they knew about the walkers.

What Lou did not consider was that at night the winding roads he so enjoyed walking along had become a raceway for the new and younger drivers. Taking advantage of these little used roads at night, they would test their skills and speed, driving on the wrong side to make a corner faster.

The police performed irregular patrols to catch them, but they were so infrequent that the racers very rarely found themselves caught. Damage to one of their cars due to overconfidence and inexperience was a more likely punishment than being pulled over.

So it was, forty eight minutes into his walk, that Lou saw the headlights of an approaching car illuminate the hedge in front of him. He could hear the roar and the grind as a gear change was missed.

Lou tucked himself into the hedge as best he could and swung his torch to let the driver know he was there.

Unfortunately for Lou, the driver of the red Vauxhall Corsa fishtailed the car as he came around the corner. He didn’t even notice the thump of his passenger side rear light smash into Lou, he was too focused on getting the car back under control so that he did not plot through the opposite hedge. He failed and the damage to the rear light was assumed to be due to the crash.

As for Lou, the blow punched him through the hedge and into the woods behind it. He flew hard enough that the lowest branch of the nearest tree punched through his back, pierced his right lung and forced its way out through his ribs before his momentum snapped it off and he landed, in agony among the trees in the dark.

In the pitch dark, and confused by the pain, Lou crawled away from the road, deeper into the woods, hoarsely gurgling for help and blood filled his lung.

Strength failing him, Lou collapsed to the dead leaf covered ground.

And died.

The Freedom from Company

Coming back as a ghost was definitely something Lou had considered. He was of the opinion that consciousness was energy and as energy could not be destroyed, merely redistributed, becoming a ghost was something that could potentially happen. There was definitely a gap between his sparing and his return as a ghost. He wasn’t too certain how long the interval was, but when he found himself standing by his body, he could see that decay had already begun to set in. So the reorganisation of his energy had clearly taken more than an instant. It was days, certainly, perhaps weeks. He wasn’t familiar wth the decomposition speed of the human body.

He spent ten minutes examing the former enclosure of himself, seeing the back of his own head for the first time was interesting, briefly. He tried to roll himself over, but found he could not interact with the body.

He said goodbye to his former self, amused that he could produce sound without air passing over his vocal chords. He wondered if anyone else would hear him.

Without ceremony or regret, he left the car as behind and walked deeper into the woods.

He spent his time observing the squirrels and spiders. Watching the growth of a single leaf over the course of days. Lou Sheen finally had everything he ever wanted, to be truly, completely alone. No worries that someone might call on him, no chance of being forced to make conversation.

The wood was empty of humanity, it was an oasis of isolation.

It was perfect.

Natural and Supernatural in Harmony

How long the ghost of Lou Sheen walked those woods, alone and content, he could not say. He did not count the days and nights. Made no effort to follow the life cycle of a single animal. The trees were older than he had been at the point of his death and while they grew, it was in increments so small that he did not notice.

The woods were calm and solitary. If not for his first moments of new existence being at the site of the expiry of his old, Lou would have given credence to the idea that this was a hand crafted Heaven.

Heat and cold did not affect him. The storm winds which shook the branches and occasionally felled one of the trees do not so much as move a hair on his head. Rain fell through him, untouched until it reached the ground. He was silent in his movements, despite every step taken being among live grass, twigs nd dead leaves. No crunch, snap or shuffle came from the ghost of Lou Sheen.

He had even stopped speaking, there was no-one to talk to except himself and he had always been able to hold conversations between himself faster inside the confines of his own mind. Vocalisation was unnecessary and less effective.

He became an observer of the woods, a stray thought weaving amongst the life that surrounded him.

On occasion he would venture beyond the borders of the trees, to the fields which bordered it. Taking some time under the open sky, to view the stars or watch the Sun, which no longer held any power to blind him. But he never returned to the road, never again for Lou Sheen was there any allure in the creations of other humans. Their noise and change to the natural world were of no interest any more.

Only one time did he hear the voices of humans. But he stayed away until they were gone. It took a full day for them to leave a when they were gone he discovered that the last remains of his body had also gone, some plastic tape tied around trees the only sign that this was where he had died.

The tape angered him. It did not belong here, it wasn’t part of his world now, just a vile fragment of the humanity he had gleefully left behind.

His rage was surprising and strong, it had been so long since he had experienced any emotion beyond contentment or curiousity.

In fury, Lou swiped at the dangling fragment and was amazed to find it moved beneath his fingers. He could touch it, could untie it. So he did. Removing all trace of the interlocking humans who had defiled his Eden.

Once he had collected all the discarded fragments, Lou found himself with a conundrum, how to dispose of them. They did not decompose, they were unnatural things. He could not simply scatter them or bury them, for they would remain, forever defiling the sanctuary of the woods.

The only choice was to return them to humanity, to the road he had ignored for so long.

It was not hard to find his way back to the asphalt snake which covered formerly green lands. The sounds o engines passing by was easy enough to track. Standing by th hedge, Lou balked at the idea of passing beyond the natural barrier that separated his new world from the old one. His solution was to thrust only his hand through the thick hedge, briefly wondering if this was near where he had been struck, and then drop the litter of humanity back on the vein of road which lay beyond.

With the woods purified, Lou turned his back on the grey stone of humanity and returned to his peace.

The Crying Sky

The day had promised rain. Murky clouds, blending into one featureless blanket had roamed across the sky since first light. Lou had once disliked rain, having wet clothes was always such a bother. Now the rain invigorated him. His inability to touch it was a blessing. Now he could appreciate the music it created. The drumbeat of a million drops hitting a million different surfaces. The whole wood was an instrument.

Over here the beat would beat fast, driving, like a thrash metal band.

There it was jazz, rhythms that fluctuated as the wind moved the branches, always changing the beat.

The was orchestral and garage band. There was everything in the collision of water and life.

So Lou waited, and waited, glaring at blue patches that opened above, hating them for threatening a clear sky. The sun reached its zenith and began to descend, the day remained overcast but dry.

Lou remained in the jazz place, it was his current favourite to listen to the rain.

He did not lose hope, he was not bored. Even without he rain, the sounds of the woods made its own music. He was, however, disappointed.

Hope is a strange experience for a ghost, for they cannot hope to achieve anything, cannot hope to do anything. Instead, their world is one of observation, of rejoicing in th happenings around them. So to wait for something to happen and then it does not, it is the closest Lou had felt to melancholy since this new existence began.

Tap

Tap-taptap-tap

Tap-tapatter-tip-tap-tippiter

Tippiter-fadoosh-tappater-patter-ratatata-tapper

The rain started slow, finding its rhythm before exploding into the most glorious of drum solos, accompanied by bass beats of thunder.

It was a concert for an audience of one.

Lou ran through the woods, composing the masterpiece as he went, alloying the subtle shifts of the beat and tempo to guide him this way and that.

He circled to a slow beat and ran to a fast one. He stood still for exquisite patterns no man could replicate and danced to irregular ones.

The world played for him and he was exhilarated by it.

A deeper boom exploded above. No thunder this, something more, something larger. Followed by a whistle that was discordant to the epic poetry of the rain.

The new, unwelcome sound came from above and away. Furious at the desecration of his concert, Lou followed the sound, finding himself outside of the woods, in the fields, staring at the sky, now black. The sun had set who knows ho long before and the stars above were hidden by the orchestral clouds.

The whistle increased in pitch and the clouds above him pushed themselves away from a single point, creating a circle to the true night sky.

Lou strained his sight, which had not changed from when he was alive, and could just barely pick out something falling through the hole in the clouds.

Not falling, flying.

The faint light that caught its edge changed as it moved. It was not falling straight down. It was turning.

Angling itself in a new direction.

It was coming straight for the fields.

No, the woods.

No.

It was coming straight for him.

The hole passed under the moon and Lou saw a teardrop, fat end to the rear, pointed tip aimed at him. The whistling eased away and the rain drums overcame it as the angle of descent eased, flattening, gliding towards the ghost of Lou Sheen.

Lou, for a moment, wondered if ghosts were able to hallucinate.

Then the droplet was upon him, its tremendous speed bleeding away until it moved no faster than a walking man.

It slowed not five metres from Lou, tilted until its pointed nose dug into the ground and rotated itself upright, carving a short groove in the field before coming to a complete stop.

Greeting the Unexpected

Now the teardrop ceased moving, Lou could discern its size. Three metres tall and one and a half across at its widest point. It truly appeared to be a droplet, the exterior undulating and rippling from an internal tide.

He felt no fear, what did a spirit have to fear from something physical?

A voice emanated from the teardrop, speaking a language he had heard but did not understand. Chinese perhaps, softer sounding than Japanese or Korean he believed. Was this some creation of Earth? Had he missed technological leaps forward during his time in the woods? It was entirely possible for he did not consider himself part of the world any more and paid no attention to the measurement of time as this still alive did.

Perhaps taking his silence as a lack of understanding, the voice spoke again. This time it sounded Indian.

Lou still did not understand.

Now it tried Russian.

He waited, English must be next.

It was.

“Hello. Do you understand me?”

Lou smiled in satisfaction, he had deduced the pattern, so nice to have a puzzle to solve. He had forgotten what a joy they could be to solve.

The voice spoke in an African dialect and Lou realised he had not replied.

“I speak English.”

Those three words took more effort than he would have ever believed. Living in silence for however long. He had done so, with no need to communicate, Lou Sheen had forgotten the simple procedures for creating sound. Breath was of course no longer important, must the muscle memory embedded in his spirit he become saggy and lax from the lack of use. His words exploded in a hoarse bark that sounded barely intelligible to himself.

The teardrop ceased speaking and waited.

Lou tried again, his vowels elongating and his consonants too sharp, but he managed to speak more clearly.

“I speak English.”

“Much thanks. Communication is now possible.” The teardrop replied, each word appearing to come from a different peaking wave on the exterior.

How did one talk to something like this? Alien, in the truest sense of the word. Did it understand politeness, had that been gleaned from whatever way it had learned the languages of Earth?

“My name is Lou Sheen.” He paused, what more could he say? He had no authority to offer this droplet anything except conversation. Would saying welcome to Earth, as he had been about to, be taken as an invitation for occupation? Failing to think of an unproblematic follow up, he allowed the pause to stretch on into silence.

“We are We.” The droplet broke the silence.

“Your name is We?”

“We don’t not have a name, for We are We. Lou Sheen, what are you?”

That was a question. Did he tell them he was human, even though he no longer was. Did he tell them he was a ghost, when he had no way to know if they understood or had concepts of souls and lives after physical death. To tell them he was human would make their first encounter with an actual human difficult. But, to tell them he was a ghost without knowing their stances on souls could invite insult.

Truth was the best he could offer We. If he insulted them, scared them, it would not be because he had fed them falsehoods which could cause problems for others later. Uncomfortable truth now would be easier for others in time. Lou found himself surprised that he still cared enough about the living to make that choice.

“I am a ghost.”

“A spirit of the dead?” We asked.

Their understanding of his situation came as a surprise, but the speed at which the obvious answer came was not. How would they have learned the languages of Earth? Most likely from signals such as radio leaving the planet. Ghosts had long been a staple of radio programming, either as stories or investigations into their existence.

This was promising, it meant that there could be a common understanding between them.

With this thought, Lou asked “And what are you?”

“We are We.” We replied.

When We Were Alone

“We do not recall our species name. We are We. Our planet was mostly covered by oceans, our entire landmass would not cover the ice at your northern pole. We did not emerge from the sea to evolve, as you did. As small creatures we gathered at the hot vents on the ocean floor. We found nutrients and we ate. Our size grew, as did that of others. Our vent had just the right mix of absorbable proteins and nutrition that caused th first sparks of consciousness. In time we became primitive, fashioning spears from hard coral and hunting the larger creatures for food. We became civilised, building villages, then towns then cities. Our world was bountiful and we created nations. We did not experience war like you, there was no scarcity of resource. Our nations expanded and combined. Eventually, our whole planet was one, never did we experience the horror of global war.”

We stopped speaking, the waves on the teardrop surface stilled and then began to form deeper troughs and higher peaks, Lou could feel the agitation in the words that followed.

“Then the individuals rose. All had what they required, our machines did the work for us, what was left to us was time. Time to be indolent or inventive. To consume or create. Because we did not need others, some were able to take themselves away. They were the first of the I.

A small movement at first, each I lived alone, away from the minor emotions and troubles of others. They began to pursue only that which they wanted, often to the detriment of others. It was our first tipping point.

The records are mostly lost, but we do know that a crackdown was considered. We were then a peaceful society, but we understood and could enact violence where warranted. No agreement could be reached on the need to impose rule on all of the I, only those caught damaging others.

The moment passed and new I joined their ranks all the time. What he once been co-operation for the good of all became business, war for the upper hand. Every interaction with another I was a zero sum game. There must always be a winner or a loser. To rely on others was to lose. As the more efficient and successful I rose, gaining property and status, more joined the I, wanting that for themselves.

Death was the next combatant, for each I knew their life was always destined to end. Many worked on the problem, from external parts, as you would call cybernetics, to internal remodelling of their own structure. It was a time of wild innovation and creation. Every success was shared to increase thei own acclaim, for that was the only currency that an I respected, the knowledge that you were better than your opponent.

Many successfully extended their lives, hoarding their secrets close. Their accumulation increased, leaving those who were not I to scrabble to dregs. The newer an I, the less they had.

Eventually, one I solved the problem.

We do not know the name they once had, just that one day an announcement went out across the world that they were I, the singular I, the only I. They would live forever.

As the fragile alliances between weaker I investigated, it was discovered that Singular I, as they came to be known, had lived far longer than any other suspected. Time and manipulation had bought Singular I control of the world. They owned everything, the world was their property and they expelled everyone who was not Singular I.

Space flight had been discovered and local mining operations on nearby moons and asteroids were steady and profitable, so the technology was available to build ships to take the population away.

As you may have realised, our ships are partially made from the waters of our world. The manipulation of it into shapes is the foundation of our technology.

Singular I allowed only enough water to be withdrawn from his personal reservoir, which was the entire world, to create just enough ships to fit every one of our race, I or not. He designated exactly how much room per individual would be granted.

On the day of Exodus, four thousand two hundred and twelve ships left the womb of our oceans and raced out into space. The level of water on the planet did not noticeably drop, it would have taken a micrometer to see the difference.”

When We Were Seperated

Singular I mixed I with not I aboard the ships. Then they programmed the ships to depart our system. The final, cruellest trick Singular I played, to prevent the exodus from returning home was to instruct the machines operating the ships that no new instruction could be implemented by the passengers unless a two thirds majority agreed.

Among the I it was near impossible for two out of three to agree on anything. The not I were used to cooperation and if they had all been on the same ships, there was no doubt that control would swiftly have been given to them. Scattered amongst the I, their numbers were too low. All control was taken from us.

The I did not sit idle. They still created, improving engines and navigational maps. They could feed superior information to their ship but they could not instruct it to act on any of that information as they desired.

Each improvement was guarded jealously by each ship and so the great armada of our people began to separate. Each increase in seed was merely fractional, but over the time and distances travelled, they became pronounced. Some improvements only seemed to be such and resulted in catastrophic failures. Two hundred and forty four ships exploded without warning. Eighty one simply ceased to use their engines, left behind to drift eternally.

For a thousand years, the I and their long lives ruled the fleet, the leadership designated by the superiority of their improvements.

But the I were self contained. They did not breed. They did not form community, they simply sought the best for themselves and any advantage to th whole was pure happenstance.

So isolated from others, they did not think to check what the not I were doing. Did not look at their numbers or bother to spy on the communications between not I on different ships.

They believed only an I could plan long term because they believed that thinking of what would benefit others you would never see was a pointless waste of time.

The not I believed differently. Before the ships even left, the plan was set. Some even think that Singular I knew of it and that it may have even been their plan for the future of the species. That to direct the ships required a majority to work together, for the benefit of each other, Singular I knew the I aboard would never do. But the not I were always working in their communities together.

To be the one to bring the species to a new level of evolution through your own machinations? That was a plan worthy of Singular I.

The not I kept close records of their numbers. Every birth and death was recorded and sent to other ships. Some ships reached majority after six hundred years, but did nothing. They waited until all surviving ships reached majority. Decades were spent plotting courses, evaluating possible new planets. During this period, the not I began to call themselves We.

This was our second tipping point.

When all ships reached majority the signal was sent. We took over the armada and a rendezvous was called.

The I were quick to realise that We had control and reacted with violence. But they acted, as they always had, individually. We knew this would happen and had prepared for the moment.

Some I slipped away from their captors, some We were killed, but generally, the rebellion was crushed before it could start. The coordinated efforts of the We outmatched the individual intellect of the I.

The new era of our species was to begin.”

When We Were All Together

“When the fleet was gathered, all the best technologies and improvements were shared among them. Each ship had been built the same, the changes made by the I over the centuries had Made each one unique. This was unacceptable to We, all of us were to have the same advantages.

Engines were refined using the best techniques. Food stores were preserved and replenished with the superior technologies.

When our homes had been made fair, We began to change the population.

Very few of the I had complained about the improvements to their ship for no ingle one had had the best of everything. Each ship had its own superiority, so they could reap the benefits, even where they could not take the acclaim.

There were some I who would not accept their autonomy to change anything however they like being removed. They hated that We could plot courses, adjust certain ship functions that they as individuals could not. They were the Isolationists. You could not call them a faction, for they did not work together, that would have been antithetical to everything they stood for.

The Isolationists retreated to their cabins and locked themselves away from the growing numbers of We. A good number of I renounced their individualistic ideals and became I, many more simply reaped the benefits and bided their time, for they were longer lived than We. They plotted for the day when they could take control once again.

But We would not wait to give them that chance. There is a saying we have have picked up from the information this world exports, ‘I don’t know how to get you to care about other people.’ We did.

For generations, the I had been advancing their own minds, the technology to adjust our brain chemistry and emotions had long existed. Now We had control of it, we determined to make the I understand us. All I and all We were implanted with technology that made us empathetic. Not as you might describe a temperament. Instead, all could physically see and understand the emotions of another, the causes. It was not telepathy, that would come later.

Only the Isolationists did not receive the upgrade. They became further separate from us, unwilling and unable to understand our most basics wants.

Trade was unnecessary between the ships, but they were not homogenous in ascetics. Each ship had developed a personal style in the millennia of our travel. So the act of ship tourism began. We would visit other ships for a change of scenery.

In time, it was realised that the amount of ship to ship travel was starting to eat into our fuel, only a small amount, just noticeable, but it was clear that over the course of time it might take us to find a suitable new home planet, we would either have to end the trips or reduce them. Ending would be fair to all, reducing would man that some were left out. That was completely unacceptable.

Refinements were made to fuel collection, but it simply wasn’t enough to keep up with demand.

The solution must be obvious to you, after all I have said.”

The We stopped speaking and Lou felt the peaks on the bulbous edge of the teardrop waiting expectantly. He had been so spellbound, he was not ready to speak and faked a cough into his hand to cover the surprise. A stupid idea, ghosts don’t get coughs.

Why would he be expected to know?

He dove into his methodology, the one he charged so much to teach to others.

List the information.

Sift out the important parts.

Extrapolate based on reasonable assumptions.

So, a species that had worked together, fell into disarray when they became individualistic to the point of almost no cooperation. Born under liquid. Ships made from that liquid. Exiled by the most individualistic of their race. Only by cooperation between the majority were they able to regain control of their fate. All are made equal once again. Community is essentially forced into them externally. None can be left behind. Individual craft making short journeys between ships cases fuel problems.

Sift the information.

A species who have recreated themselves as a community.

Ships created from liquid.

Individual travel creates a problem.

Extrapolate.

Liquid is a communal state. Each separate part will become one with he whole if reunited. If individual ships are the problem, then the ships can’t be individual.

“You merged all of your feet into one, massive, ship. Travel now doesn’t require fuel. All resources are pooled, forever. There is no separation between members of your species.”

Two tall peaks splashed together, Lou took it to be some form of clapping.

“Very well done. We formed our entire fleet into one vessel. Now all styles were available to all. A bonus was that the fuel needed to moving the vessel was less than all of the individual ships making the same adjustments. Our resources would now go even further.

All of the I that found their personal space now expanded, their rations going further, all of theI that remained became We.

Only the Isolationists were steadfast in their rejection.

They were left in their isolation, provided for but never communicated with. The decision was reached to ignore them, to allow them to live or die by themselves as they chose.

This was our third tipping point, but we would not understand that for thousands of years.

Instead we thought our third tipping point was the introduction of our telepathic implants. When all knew what all were thinking, we became the We that was hoped for. Individual traits were absorbed to be part of the whole. As one mind we decided that a planet would not suit us. We were in unity that the We should explore the stars.

As our minds became one, so too did we begin the process of making our bodies one also.

The process took generations and its methodology is long lost to us.

But finally We were one and We were all.”

The Third Tipping Point

“What was unexpected when We became all was the loss of our highest peaks. In hindsight, it was a natural reaction to our determination that none should be lesser. What this meant is that we employed our engineering to prevent intellects and physical attributes that were below the average. This was truly a noble endeavour on our part, that none of We should ever feel left behind or less than another, even as we strived to remove the individualistic traits that had sent us on the long journey.

If you do not allow any to fell less than another, then you cannot allow any to feel superior either. This was the great fault. We removed genius from our species. Instead of lifting all up, we stopped any from falling. But none can fall if there is no rise to fall from.

It was when the vessel was struck by an undetected meteoroid that our follow was revealed to us. The damage was extensive, while a good proportion of We were lost, most were saved due to automatic reactions on the vessels part. Repairs were needed.

This was a new situation, one never encountered by the vessel. When smaller ships had been struck, they were lost forever.

A good amount of our hull was gone, frozen in space behind us. It could be retrieved, the consensus was that it should be. Our methods for fuel extraction would suit to recover it. But to refashion it from te frozen state into workable material, this was a new thing.

It was a thing that required a certain creativity of thought, a leap of genius we had bred out of ourselves.

There was but one choice, we had to seek the help of an Isolationist.

All but one refused us. Their survival was not dependant upon the repair, the vessel could still function.

The Isolationist that said it would help had one demand. When the repair was done, we would land them on a planet it had already chosen, with such supplies and equipment as it chose. We would leave it there to fulfill whatever isolation based dream it had.

We agreed, and this was where the third tipping point began to topple.

The Isolationist was a genius, beyond a genius. It had lived for thousands of years, had invented many ways to improve itself, not only its lifespan but its intellect as well. All of the others were like it, all of them no longer saw themselves as members of the same species as We, not even as each other. They had forced their evolution through will and intellect. In our state of what it called mediocrity, we were the same as the creatures we had once hunted in the early days of our civilisation on our home world. Our sentience was dubious, but as the majority, we had control of the world it lived in. That was no longer acceptable to it, to be ruled over by animals.

It refused to tell us how to make the repairs, insisting on working alone. The Isolationist said that we did not earn the leap forward in technology that even watching its actions would give us.

The Isolationist supervised the recovery of the frozen hull and once it wa aboard it shut out all We from the section. Monitoring and cameras were blocked and remained so unti they came back on and the damaged are was exactly as it had been before the collision, missing only the We and Isolationists which had lived there.

The planet chosen would take a hundred years to reach. The Isolationist returned to its space and would not respond again until the day of arrival.

The vessel would not stop, instead the Isolationist was to be sent down with its equipment. On the day of departure, it stated that wasn’t acceptable. Instead it wanted to be flown down by We an then the craft and We would leave it and its equipment behind.

This was possible, for We can separate parts of ourselves and reabsorb them into the whole at a later date, like a liquid does.

This is the closest We get to an individualistic situation. We can communicate and feel what others do, but they are restricted to eighty five percent of the speed of light. So distance decreases our communication ability.

The vessel can travel at ninety percent of the speed of light, so that part of We that went down to the planet wit the Isolationist would be truly seperated for a time. Even though the vessel would slow, the drop point was at the edge of the system and the docking point was to be at the far side.

This, we would discover, was all part of the Isolationist’s plan.

Not only had it improved its mental abilities far beyond what We could achieve, it had als rediscovered violence and mastered many aspects of it. As a community where all were one, we had no need for violence. We had forgotten our struggle in the early days f civilisation.

As such, once the contents of the drop ship were removed and We could leave to rejoin ourselves, the Isolationist struck. It overpowered We and made modifications.

Aboard the vessel, We know nothing of this until far too late because of the communication delay.

The drop ship left the planet and began to close on the vessel.

When connection was made, we knew at once that we must outrun ourselves.

The Isolationist had made us a plague unto ourselves.

We from the planet had a bilogical imperative to reconnect with us implanted within it. We must return to the vessel, to inject ourselves into We.

The body of the We was infected with something the Isolationist called dissolution. If planet We connected with vessel We, that would be the end.

We would separate, become district and individual again. With our level of intellect and technology, we could not combat it. To reach the level of scientific understanding to counteract the plague, generations of disparate We would have to work together. But We knew our individualistic past, the Isolationist had shown us it could not be ignored. We as We would cease, we would become something else.

So the vessel ran.

The dropship chased.”

We Can Never Escape Ourselves

“Are you still running from that one part of yourselves?” Lou asked.

“In a way. The Isolationist upgraded the dropship, it runs almost as fast as the vessel and is more fuel efficient. We do not know how long it spent working on this plan. For the vessel and the dropship to refuel, they must drop their speed and collect matter in the form of space dust and radiation. The dropship can refuel many times faster than the vessel, but must refuel three times as often to travel the same distance. Despite our head start, eventually the dropship would reach the vessel. Being made from the same liquid, it can reabsorb at any point and then we are doomed.

So we ran, always panicked, never resting.

During the early days, suspicion of the other Isolationists reached a fever pitch, the betrayal was all We could think of. A decision was made to maroon them on a planet together. They were frcibly expelled from their rooms with the barest of essentials to survive and left on the first habitable planet we came near.

They raged a us, but could not prevent us. We do not know what happened to them after, we were too scared to look back.”

“I can understand the fear, but to punish all of them for something one did, that seems unfair.” Lou found his voice taking on a scolding tone he did not expect.

Agitated waves rippled the length of the teardrop. ”It took us a long time to understand that. You must understand that we had long bred all notions of individuality out of ourselves. We no longer comprehended the concept of one part acting in a way that was not the choice of all. The Isolationists, we saw them as a separate, but single species. It was inconceivable to us that the actions of the one was not the actions of all. We regret what we I’d now. Not least because in their genius, there might have been a solution.

In time the dropship, the chaser, was near upon its and a desperate measure was taken. We would colonise a moon. Separate part of ourselves so that if the chaser could not be evaded then part of us might live on and perhaps find a solution.

What happened next was a shock to us all.

The chaser stopped following the vessel and changed direction to infect the colony.

The apocalypse had been averted for a time and a new plan had been formed.”

We Are Losing

“This part of us is simply the latest aspect of the Plan. Any habitable moon or planet, we send part of ourselves. The chasers grow in number, but slowly. Each deviation costs them time as they must decelerate and land before escaping the planet’s gravity to chase once more. Each part of us we sacrifice buys time for the rest of us, even though the time spent by the chaser tracking down the parts of us is negligible compared to hat is lost during deceleration and acceleration.

But still we have no spark of genius to understand the mechanisms the Isolationist put into the chaser.

The apocalypse is slow, but inevitable. The chaser no longe flies alone, each part of us infected carries the same imperative to return and they have begun to separate, only one part will chase our delaying part. As their numbers grow, the more of us that we must disperse to slow them down. The Fourth Tipping Point is coming, we cannot prevent it.

When there are more chasers than there are parts of us left to disperse, the Isolationist will win. The We will be no more. What will the chasers do when there is nothing left to chase? Will an ennui consume all of them? We do not know.”

Liquid dripped from the outermost points and Lou realised the We was crying.

“You might still change yourselves. You do not have to remain fixed forever. Look at how much your species has changed from when you first emerged. There must be some way to fix this.”

“Not with an outside influence. The biological fear of the individual is deep rooted within us. We cannot bear to see any part of ourselves made less. Each use of a delaying part is a knife to our very being. We being here has caused such hurt to those on the vessel that you could not comprehend.”

All of One Nature, One of Two

Lou had something he wanted to say, but he also wanted a bit more information first “Why have you come to me? I am alone and seperated from what was my species due to the end of my natural life. I cannot tell them your story, I cannot make them help you.”

“We came to you, Lou Seen, because you were new. Even as we are speaking, the transmission continues. The We aboard the vessel receive the data about you. What you are, as we see you, is a being of energy. We had encountered energy beings before, but none could speak. They were not former beings of matter such as you. While this planet has many beings such as yourself, you were the one who was furthest from any other matter creature.”

“You mean, there aren’t any humans near me?”

“Yes. Although they come, We hear their signals. This military comes. They cannot harm us. Only the chaser can and they will.It is inevitable.”

Lou licked his lips, no saliva to wet them, just an old reaction, not thought about. “I wat to tell you a little about myself. It won’t be a song or detailed as your story because it doesn’t need to be. I want you to make sure the We on the vessel hear all of his. It might help you. It might not, it will all depend on what you do with he information I provide. Do you understand?”

A large wave, tsunami sized in comparison to the others, washed down the teardrop from tip to point “We understand.”

“Right then. I was born human. That means I was always alone in my head, my thoughts were private from the moment I could comprehend them. The ability to share them was a way to get things I wanted. This is the same for all humans. Because we are born small and helpless, we need others to care for us, otherwise we would die. We cannot feed ourselves or find shelter until we have years of life. So, we are taught, from a very early age, that life can only continue through cooperation. But, we retain our own wants and desires. Some people put their own wants above what anyone else needs, some put their desires so far beneath the needs of others, they have nothing for themselves. In between these two extremes ar where most humans exist.

As a human, I disliked the company of other humans, I found them distracting from the things I wished to achieve. Yet, I would help others where I could. A donation of money, advice. I became comfortable making a living by dispensing advice to people to make their businesses work better, but I did it for my own enrichment.

When I died and became this ghost, this energy being, I did no miss people because I had never wished to be around them. Instead I have become entranced with nature. This world that exists outside of the control of humans.

The rain comes when it will, the grass will grow or die, leaves with bud then fall. Human actions can affect these things, but they cannot be controlled. In these woods I have found a peace.

Yet, when you came down, I was excited to speak to you. Not only because you are something new, but because, much as I claimed to always be alone, I was not. I interacted with my clients, with people at shops who sold me things. Workmen who fixed my kitchen. Even when I thought myself entirely alone and self sufficient, I was not. I have always needed others to do things fo me, just as they have needed me to do things for them.

Your species has lacked one thing in all te tales you have told me. You refuse to accept balance. You want all or nothing. You know this, because you told m yourself, that you lowered everyone so that none would be left behind, rather than raising all so that the lowest was still better off than your current average.

Tell me this, are all the thoughts of the We the same all of the time?”

“They are not, the vessel still requires a two thirds majority and sometimes, very rarely, that is not achieved. We are working to stop that.”

“No!” Bellowed Lou, shocked at the anger in him “You must not. You must encourage it. Your species created geniuses before, it can do so again. Singular I and the Isolationist come from the same place. You must allow disagreement, constant cohesion will not give you new answers, it will only reinforce the old ones.

Balance, that is what you must strive to find. Stop pushing all the way to one extrem or another. Be the We, but allow the brighter voices to rise. Encourage and support. That is the only hope you have.”

Lou felt himself panting, found his emotion had gotten the better of him, driving old memories of emotional exhaustion to manifest once again. His hand was wet, in his anger he must have swiped at the teardrop.

“We understand what you say. Much of We will reject it.”

“Of course they will. Its the ones that don’t who might save you.”

There was silence as the We considered.

“You don’t find me strange? My passing from a matter state to an energy on?” Lou asked, finding the start of a train of thought.

“We d not. The changing of states, it occurs in all nature.”

“Have the We ever experienced life afte death, like this? Do you have stories of ghosts in your culture?”

Gentle ripples Lou recognised as thoughts scattered across the teardrop.

“There is no death among the We. When a part fails to continue seperate existence, it is reabsorbed into the whole, memories and thoughts too.”

“What of the I?”

“The I do not die. We have no memory of death amongst them. At one point, perhaps, but that would be before they were I.”

“We will ignore the I for now then. Tell me of your dead. You take them back in as part of you, so that they never die?”

“You cannot seperated We from We. Even in different space, We are We. Here, We are We, as are We aboard the vessel, now long since beyond your system.”

“So, if this We before me dies, fails to continue life, however you put it, what happens?”

“We rejoin the…”

Great mountainous waves thrashed about, converting the teardrop in a stormy sea of fury.

“We, will be too far to communicate. Unless life ceases within ten hours. We, would be We but not We. When the chaser comes, We would not be We, but we would change into a chaser. This we understand, but to not be We and not be chaser? Do we become I?”

“I don’t know. But look at you, you’ve just had an original thought. The We now have a new idea.”

The tsunamis eased away “A new idea. The We will know of this idea. But what do we do with it?”

Lou shrugged “I don’t know. That’s not the point of this conversation any more. The fact is, external sources provide new information. The We had genius before, the We can rediscover it. The We must simply ask for help. Speak to any civilisation you can communicate with. Don’t lose your hope.”

Before the We could answer blinding lights lit up the whole area, Lou covered his eyes against the glare, shocked to be so disoriented by them whe the Sun was no obstacle to him.

“Your military arrive. We will allow them to take us. They may assist in slowing the chaser down. Each moment it wastes is time gained to search for our salvation. We thank you, Lou Sheen. You have given us much to think of.”

Unable to think of an appropriate response, Lou simply gave the teardrop a thumbs up and retreated to the edge of the woods.

The Choice to Change

Lou watched the army surround the teardrop. They first attempted to communicate with We, but the waters of the ship were still. The We had nothing more to say at this time. He hoped they oiled reconsider, they would be surrounded by many smart humans, any one of them might provide the spark the We needed.

He did not want to watch the We being taken away and withdrew to the deeper parts of the woods, letting the engine sounds fade away.

It was not just the We who had much to think about, Lou did too.

In speaking to the We, the realisation of how many people he had relied upon simply to live comfortably had been sobering. Now he was in a state that truly required no-one else.

However.

He had felt smo comfortable returning to his status as outsider to a problem. The axis faction of seeing the We realise it had new information had been immense. He had not solved the crisis of an entire alien species, that would have been far too much to ask. Perhaps he had, in some small way, helped.

Balance, that was the thing. Tip too far one way and you become I, seperated so much that no matter your achievements, they would never be put to full use because they were only down to y and improvements from external sources were none existent.

Tip too far the other way and where none can suffer, none can rise above to create new things for the betterment. Stagnation.

Either extreme would eventually lead to stagnation, in your own thoughts and to that of society as a whole.

He had become an I, in these woods.

Yet, for just a few moments, he had been so much more.

He wanted to be more, he wanted to find that balance.

Staying in these woods would not allow him to do that, so, for the first time since his state change, Lou Sheen passed through the hedge and stepped onto the road.

Humanity awaited and he was going to them.

© Robert Spalding 2020

Story 28 – Ghostpuncher III: The Fatal Punch of Death

It wasn’t my first time in a wine bar, but I’d not been in one this posh before. I’ll be honest, I felt out of place. When you’re over six foot tall and muscled from years of solid labour, skin browned and weathered because you spend almost every day working outside, in a room full of dainty city boys and their glammed up wives, you stand out. Now, I’m not saying I cared that the lot of the rich sods were giving me side eye, I know who I am and its not their approval I look for. However, it did put me off my game, I’d much rather have been having the meeting down at Milly’s or the Queen’s.

It took me a moment to find the right woman, which is probably what started the trouble.

You see, when I walk into a place like that, where the cheapest glass of wine was about the same as a weeks rent for a lot of people I know, the regulars think I’m lost. Or they think I’m there for nefarious purposes. My eyes don’t help, when I’m angry they’ve been described as “The place hope dies” by a mate.

I was hoping this Mrs Black would know me on sight and make some sort of signal so I could find her. But everyone was just gaping at me like a goldfish that hopped the bowl. So I started looking at the single women, one by one, trying to see who was a likely client.

At which point one of the Hooray Henrys decided it would be a good time to teach the oik a lesson.

Red nosed, flushed cheeks and eyes unfocused, he tried to get in my face, but being nearly a foot shorter all he did was get up in my chest. Which he poked.

“Can I help you?” I asked, trying to remember I was here for business and to not take that finger and do something unpleasant with it.

“You look lost, chap. Actually, not lost enough, so why don’t you march yourself out.” He brayed, that Chelsea, posh voice that really grinds my teeth.

“I’m here to meet someone.” I didn’t look down at him, just kept scanning the single women, of who there were more than a few and a decent number of them young enough to be my daughter.

“You? Meet someone here?” He poked my chest again, I held back a growl. “I don’t think so. The only people who come here dressed like you are those silicon chaps and you don’t look like you could even turn a computer on.”

Yes, I don’t really use the computer much, don’t really have a lot of need for it, but his arrogance was really starting to push my class warfare buttons, ones I keep firmly under safety glass marked “Do not break except in case of revolution.”

I finally looked down to acknowledge him properly, I tried to keep my eyes soft, but I must have failed because he took two steps back and gulped. “I am here to meet a Mrs Black. I, unfortunately, don’t know what she looks like, just that she’s by herself.”

The Henry pointed his finger at me, I glared at the digit, it was withdrawn. I think my general size and potential for violence was starting to filter through the overpriced grape juice he shuttled down his neck. Unfortunately for him, his boys hadn’t got the message.

“Don’t let him stare you down, Tristan!”

“Teach him his place, old boy!”

“Go on Tris, send him crying to Mummy!”

I glanced over at the drunken table, four of them sitting there, a number of empty bottles. Three of them were even drunker than this Tristan, but one looked mostly sober and he looked worried, I think he probably realised how bad an idea this could be.

Tristan looked from me to his boys and back again. The jeers had obviously got to him, couldn’t look the fool in front of an oik like me. I looked away from him to see if the staff were going to do anything. No, they were all watching too, waiting to see what would happen.

Tristan balled up his fist.

“Don’t do it.” I told him.

He took a moment to rethink the assault and his boys started again.

I could squash him, probably one gut punch would put him on his knees in the middle of a puddle of sick. But in a place like this, bearing in mind how much money this lot spent in here, I knew which one of us would have the next few months and definitely the rest of the day ruined by the fuzz.

So, next best choice and I hated this option, goes against a lot of what I believe about actions having consequences.

I let him hit me, leaned my chest forward to soften the punch and reduce the power, not that it had a lot behind it to start with. I was surprised, looking at Tristan, I’d had him down as a former rugby player, but not with a hit like that.

His fist bounced off me and I ignored the jolt it gave me, instead I beamed at him with the kindest, sad smile I could manage, the one your Mum gave you when you tried your best but still failed.

“Would you like another go? Try to do it properly?” I asked him, keeping my voice light, consoling him like he was a child who’d just failed on the claw machine.

My reaction had completely wrong footed him, he had expected to put me on my arse, the fact that I was still standing and wasn’t even annoyed by his punch was too much. He retreated into the usual stance of a bully who can’t compete with his victim.

“You’re not worth my time.” He snorted.

I half closed my eyes and pursed my lips, giving him the little head nods to say “Sure, of course.”

He went bright red and his mates were howling at him, I worried he wouldn’t be able to take the hit to his ego and things could get worse when two things happened at once.

His mate who hadn’t egged him on stood up and gripped his arm, nodding a thank you to me, before pulling Tristan down to his seat.

A woman lightly tapped me on the arm and said my name.

“Yes, I’m Reg Carroll. Are you Mrs Black?” I said, turning to look at her.

One thing was for sure, she wasn’t Mrs Black. I knew that because I knew her face. She was a model, a catwalk model. She had also been in the news six months ago, her face was plastered everywhere.

I knew then who it was she wanted me to punch. This was going to be interesting.

“I am Mrs Black.” She said.

“Excellent. Look, I know you picked this place and I get why now, but maybe we could go elsewhere? I don’t want Tristan over there realising his feelings are hurt badly enough to try for a rematch.”

She looked at the table of Henrys and nodded.

“Do you have anywhere in mind?”

“Yes. Do you like chocolate cake?”

Milly found us a quiet corner of the tea room. She had, much to my despair, already sold out of the Death by Chocolate, but said if we were going to be there a while she could whip us up a couple of her special choccy cupcakes.

I just about stopped myself from falling to my knees to give thanks. I love her chocolate cakes.

The woman who was not Mrs Black looked at me, puzzled.

“Milly makes the best chocolate cakes. But they always sell out before I can get here. I think she probably recognised you as well, which is why we’re getting special treatment. So, I’m already in your debt.” I told her.

She looked surprised “You know who I am?”

I gave her my best kind smile “Mrs Lauren, you were all over the news not so long back. I know who your husband was and I’ve seen you in adverts. You are pretty well known.”

“I always thought Michel was the well known one.”

“He was more famous, being a middleweight champ will do that. But that advert you did for that ice cream, it got around.”

She looked embarrassed “That was over a decade ago.”

I was about to explain why it had stuck in my mind, then realised I was about to tell her how much I’d enjoyed watching ice cream slowly melt down her near naked body. Now, I’m not a retiring wallflower and if I was trying it on with her, I’d maybe have complimented her on it. But she was here as a client, my private erotic thoughts didn’t fit the tone. Time to change the subject.

“Given what I saw on the news, about your husband dying at home, I’m going to guess he’s who you’d like me to deal with.”

She nodded “But it’s not quite what you might think.”

“I don’t think anything yet. Can I ask, before you begin, how did you hear about me? No offence but I don’t get calls from people in your social circle. I’ve heard there’s some sort of private or government organisation you lot can call on.”

She nodded “The MSSA, they did in fact come to see me once I mentioned the situation to a few people. It was they who recommended you to me.”

That shocked me, I worked purely on word of mouth, I don’t get governments or people with contacts coming to me. I was having a hard time believing they’d even heard of me, I don’t even do my side job outside of town unless something crops up while I’m on a job elsewhere.

“They told you to come to me?”

“They said you had the exact skill set for my particular problem.”

So, they knew what I did and how I did it? I wasn’t sure if I liked that or not.

“Did they tell you what my skill set, as they put it, is?”

She smiled, perfect teeth in a perfect face, no wonder she’d done as well as she had. “Oh yes, they did. And I agree with them, you’re the perfect person to help him with his problem.”

That stopped me, normally people want me to help them with their problem, I’ve never had anyone say the ghost has a problem.

She must have seen me look confused “The thing is, he’s not haunting me or disrupting me. He just stays in the same place and I can tell he’s upset because of the way he’s been hitting the bag. I could always tell when he was upset, he does a certain combination on it, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen the bag move that way before he died.”

“Has he appeared to you, have you managed to speak to him?”

She shook her head “He won’t appear, I don’t know if he can or not. The agents that came out didn’t say anything about being able to see him either.” A small sniff, she had loved him, it wasn’t just for the money like all those rumours he suggested. You can tell when someone truly misses someone, all those little things add up. “I’ve talked when he’s there, but I don’t know if he listens.”

Milly appeared at the table with two delicious looking cupcakes on two plates. A perfect moment to give Mrs Lauren the chance to compose herself.

“You want some ice cream to go with that, Reg?” Milly asked and for the first time in god knows how long I felt my cheeks heat up in a blush.

I saw Milly wink at Mrs Lauren who was covering a smile at my discomfort. God bless that woman, she’s sharper than most people give her credit for. Which is probably why my attempts to take her out had been discreetly but firmly brushed off.

I gave Milly a wink and a smile “Not right now, darlin’. Maybe later.”

She winked back “Enjoy your cakes, I’ll bring a pot of tea over in a bit.”

“You’re a diamond, Milly.”

She nodded “I know.” Then she went back to her other customers.

“Tell me what the problem with Michel is. It doesn’t sound like he’s disturbing you, so he could just be taking his time before stepping through the door.” I redirected the chat back to the matter at hand, trying to ignore the mental image of melting ice cream that kept nudging the edges of my libido.

She dabbed at her eyes with a handkerchief “He won’t, he’s too angry at himself. Did you see his last fight?”

“Only the highlights, I was working at the time.” I had been, the Terry’s, an angry couple that had managed to kill each other in a fight and then started up again every time someone tried to move into their old home.

“Then you probably heard more about how bad he was than saw, they only put his better actions in the highlights.”

I nodded, “He’d looked decent, but unlucky in the highlights. The papers tore into him, said he’d been slow and sloppy the entire fight.”

“Yes, he took Williams far too lightly. Thought the man wasn’t up to par.”

“And lost the belt as a result.”

“Yes, then the aneurysm three days later.”

Now it made sense. A champion, defeated through a combination of under preparation, over confidence and a better opponent than he’d expected, died before he could come to terms with it.

“So, you want me to beat some sense into him?”

She looked shocked “No, Mr Carroll. I think he needs a fight.”

“That’s what I said.”

“Perhaps I cannot explain it properly. Maybe Michel could, perhaps he should.”

I agreed, but first things first “I can come up to the house. But first, we do have to talk about my fee.”

“Absolutely.” She reached into her bag and pulled out an envelope full of cash. Far too much cash. “I am sure this would do.”

“That is too much.” I told her.

“You haven’t counted it yet.”

“Mrs Lauren, this is a side job for me, its not how I make my living. That envelope is far too fat and I only ever take half upfront.”

She was surprised, I think she was expecting me to wring every last penny I could out of her. I took the envelope from her and pulled out the right amount. Half went into my pocket, the other I handed back to her along with the envelope.

“You just give me that half when I’m done.”

“But, you can have all of this. I don’t mind paying, this is so much less than I thought.”

“I charge everyone the same, unless they really can’t pay. I’ve been known to do someone a favour now and then. Just because you can pay more, doesn’t mean I’m going to charge you more.” I thought about it for a moment “OK, I have been known to charge more, but that is when the client is more like that Tristan from the wine bar.” I gave her a wink “Arsehole tax.”

She snorted a laugh and it was my turn to be shocked. Everything else about her was so elegant, but that laugh sounded more like a rhino farting.

I couldn’t help but laugh too, which only set her off more. Its nice when someone that perfect has at least something more regular human about them.

Milly came back with the pot of tea while we were fighting back tears of laughter and trying to catch our breath.

I let Mrs Lauren, Jacqui, drive me to her house. I could have taken my own car but how often can you get driven around town in an Aston Martin Vanquish by a model? Not often enough, in my experience.

The house was what you probably expect from the home of a boxing champion and a model. Large gardens, modern architecture that I didn’t care for. The thing that caught my hustling eye was the amount of windows in the place. I did a quick mental calculation and reckoned cleaning just this house would be worth more than a whole street to me.

I proposed the idea, that after I was done I could come back and wash them.

Jacqui laughed and apologised, she had a company that took care of all of that for them.

“Can’t blame me for asking.”

“No, Mr Carroll, I don’t. Maybe there is something you can do around the grounds for me, I hear you are a man of many talents.”

I shrugged “Hard work has never scared me. Neither has hustling for a better opportunity.”

She parked the car in front of the house.

“I will take you straight to the gym, if you don’t mind. I can give you the tour afterwards if you want one, but I would like Michel to get his peace as soon as possible.”

She was looking me dead in the eyes, hoping I was the answer to her problem. Well, I was going to be, she should have just a bit more faith.

“When I’m done, Michel will move on, I promise.”

We walked round the side of the house and I admired the edging in the garden, whoever they got in to do the work really knew their stuff. The colours complemented the stone of the house in a way I approved of.

At the back of the house was an extension which was obviously not part of the original house. It was more utilitarian, clearly built for function and not beauty. Squat and flat, but with plenty of windows to let the light in. He’d had a proper gym built, I approved of the idea, less so of the style.

Jacqui led me to the window and pointed inside, the lights were on and I could see the former middleweight champ working the heavy bag.

“You see how the bag moves?” She asked.

“I can see him, love. He doesn’t look happy and he’s taking it out on the bag.”

“You can see Michel?” She sounded shocked.

“Of course I can. How did you expect me to fight him if I couldn’t?”

“But, he hasn’t shown himself to me.”

“Probably doesn’t know how. Turning ghost doesn’t come with an instruction manual. If you want to come in, I’ll have a word and see if I can get him to materialise for you.”

“Why can you see him but I can’t?”

“Ah, you see, as a kid I pissed off the fortune teller on the seafront. She had me drink a tea made from special herbs and after that, I see all the ghosts.”

“Honestly?”

I shook my head “No, but its a good story isn’t it?”

“Won’t you tell me the real reason?”

“Nah, that’s mine.”

She looked disappointed, but was quickly over it “I suppose the why doesn’t matter much, does it?”

“Nope, just that I can do what I say I can.”

“And can you?”

I rolled my shoulders to start loosening up “Absolutely.”

I walked in to the gym casually and called out “Hey, Champ, how’s it going?”

Michel Lauren didn’t stop punching, but he did glance in my direction.

I stood by the bag watching him for a moment, he didn’t spare me any attention.

“You’re telegraphing that hook, a blind man would see that coming.”

The punches stopped and he looked at me, I looked back and smiled.

He crouched and shuffled away to the weight rack. I watched him go.

Confused, he rolled across the floor, silently, and hid behind the ring.

“You look ridiculous.” I told him.

“You can see me?”

I rolled my eyes “Yes, mate, I’m magic, I am. I can see you, I can hear you.”

He narrowed his eyes and stepped out ready to pounce, I mean, fair enough, he didn’t know who I was or why I was here. But he could have just asked.

He swung a haymaker at me, sloppy, but still with he form of a pro behind it. I dodged and slapped him on the back of his head.

That stopped him short.

“Oh yes, lad. I can touch you as well.”

“Why are you ‘ere?” The French accent overrode his learned London one for a moment.

“Your missus is worried about you. Called me in to help out.”

He made a pff and waved me off “She brought those government men. They were useless. Why can a man who looks like you,” he gestured at my faded jeans, workboots and t-shirt “do that they can’t?”

I stepped up to him and without warning, flicked his ear, making him jump back and bring his fists up.

“For a start, I can do that.”

He was starting to look annoyed, which wasn’t what I was actually going for.

“Look, your wife knows you are here, she’s seen you working the bag. Says she can tell when you are upset by the combinations you do. She wants me to help you find peace.”

He laughed at that “Peace? How do I find that? I lost everything because I didn’t take my opponent seriously. The one time I let my ego get in the way of hard work and then I die before I can make it right.” He started shouting “Do you know how hard I worked to get all of this? How hard I worked to make myself who I wished to be?”

“I’ve got a decent idea, I am a fan of yours.”

“Don’t you mean were a fan?” He spat.

“Nope, ‘cos you’re right here and I think you’ve got one last fight in you.”

He smirked “And who is going to fight me?”

I held my fists up “I am.”

He considered the idea.

Before he could say anything else I pointed back to the entrance were Jacqui was watching us “Would you like to say something to your wife?”

Michel saw her watching and I saw the tears fill his eyes. “I’ve tried, I’ve yelled and whispered, but she can’t hear me.”

“I can help with that.”

“You’ll pass messages along? A violent medium?”

“Nah, Michel, I’ll tell you how to manifest.”

“How to what?”

I rolled my eyes, the education these ghosts don’t have is, quite frankly, embarrassing for them at times.

“I’ll tell you how to make yourself appear so that anyone who isn’t me can see you.”

“Could I hold her?”

“You could hold her now, if you wanted, its not just the heavy bag and me that can touch you. But, I think it woul be less distressing for her if she could see you, know what I mean?”

“Jack.” He whispered, staring at her.

I snapped my fingers in front of his face and he glared at me “Plenty of time to be weepy in a minute. Let’s make you visible, yeah?”

“OK then. What do I do?”

This was awkward, I knew what he had to do, I’d just never had to explain it before. I probably should have thought my speech through, but winging it has been how I got through so much, I didn’t think it would matter.

“Its all about your mentality. Most ghosts appear to people because they want to scare them. They want to do something to the other person.”

“I want to help Jack, I want her to know its ok.” He protested.

“Do you though? Come on, be honest, you’re ashamed of yourself. If you want her to see you, its because you really want her to tell you its ok, isn’t it?”

He stared at me, silent, before nodding.

“Exactly my point. You want her to see you because of how it would affect you. Mate, she loves you, I can see it every time she talks or thinks about you. She’s hurting because you’re hurting. Show her yourself so that she feels better.” I took a moment to think about whether what I was going to say next was too blunt, then decided it wasn’t. He was a tough lad, he could take it. “Your feelings in this, they don’t matter any more. You’re dead, you don’t actually have all the senses and feelings you used to. A ghost isn’t an exact copy, just incorporeal. A ghost is a collection of your strongest emotions, held together by will or fear or determination. Your shame, your fear, its only a part of who you were, but now that everything else is gone, its the biggest part of you. But I saw how you looked at her, your love for your missus is burning strong. Let it be the strongest part of you, one of the strongest. Want her to see you so that you can make her feel better. Let your love heal her.”

Yeah, it got a bit soppy, but he’s French, you need to appeal to the things that motivate them.

Michel walked away from me, towards his wife. I gave her a nod, I don’t think she understood me.

“What is happening?” She called out.

Michel reached out to touch the tears on her face and I would guess he popped into vision right as he did so. She jumped back and slapped his hand, yelping.

“Its ok, Jack. All bon.” Michel told her.

“You scared the shit out of me.” She laughed and then they wrapped their arm around each other and that’s when I turned around. Some moments are private. I might be a sod, but even I can be respectful.

While they talked and cried and did whatever else they needed to, I climbed into the ring and took off my t-shirt. I considered fighting in my bare feet, but decided against it. My work boots would do fine. I’m a half decent amateur boxer, but I ain’t no twinkle toes on the mat. Too flat footed for a great fighter. No, that’s no right. I stand and move all wrong to be a great boxer. But boxing and fightings different. One has plenty of rules, the other only has one. Last man standing wins.

I’m a fucking deadly fighter, trust me on that.

But I didn’t think a fight is what I was going to be doing. This was was going to be a match, it had to be.

Leaning on the ropes, still facing away from the soon to be parted couple, I felt him climb into the ring.

“Said everything you need to?” I asked, turning around. Michel was leaning against the ropes opposite, a confused smile on his chops. Jacqui was sat in a chair, watching us.

“I think I helped her. But I’m still here. Your help has not sent me on.”

I couldn’t hold back the bark of laughter “That’s not the kind of help I provide, sunshine. That was me being nice.”

Now he really looked confused “You don’t convince spirits to move on? That’s wat Jack said you did.”

“Well, she’s technically correct. She’s just left out a few details.”

“Such as?”

“Such as my job title. I’m a ghostpuncher.”

His turn to laugh “What does that entail?”

“I punch ghosts until they decide to leave. Sometimes I kick them too. I have a very hands on approach to making spirits pass over.”

“Is that your plan for me? To beat me until I cry for mercy?”

I shook my head and started properly limbering up “Nope. You don’t have the same problem as most of them. You don’t want to move on because you are ashamed of yourself. So, you need to fix what’s wrong.”

“And what is that?” He sounded hopeful, I thought he’d started to catch on.

“You’ve got to box, one last time. Giving it everything, taking it seriously. Win or lose, you’ll know you did your best. Then you can pass over.”

“And you think I should box you?”

“Yep. Now, before you get cocky, know a few things about me. I’ve got seven wins, two knock outs, two losses on my amateur record. I have also beaten the unliving shit out of more ghosts than I can fully remember over the last thirty years. I’ve never failed to beat a stubborn spirit into submission.”

“Well, you may have.” He started to bounce on his toes, “But you haven’t fought a professional like me before, have you?”

I started moving towards the centre of the ring “True. But I’ve got six inches in height on you and more than that in reach. I’m also in the heavyweight class. Don’t think for a second this will be easy.”

Still bouncing he actually studied me. Looked at my arms, how my legs moved. Began to take my measure.

“You need time or can you do this now.”

He licked his lips and looked to Jacqui, who smiled and nodded.

“We can do this now.”

I looked over to Jacqui “Mrs Lauren, would you do us the honour of ringing the bell?”

She stood up and yelled “Ding!”

We moved towards each other.

You don’t get a blow by blow of this one. Its a fight I will always cherish. Neither of us embarrassed ourselves, I’ve never boxed better. He had, but I made him work for everything in this one.

When it was done there was a winner and there was someone who hadn’t won the match but didn’t feel like a loser.

The door appeared in the centre of the ring as we were shaking hands.

“Is that it?” Jacqui asked, climbing through the ropes.

“That’s it.” I told her.

“That’s it.” Michel whispered, awed.

“Its been an honour, lad.” I told Michel.

“Thank you for this. I didn’t even get your name.”

“Reg Carroll. I’ll pop out now. Let you say your goodbyes in peace.”

I nodded to Jacqui as I slipped under the ropes, holding my t-shirt, trying not to wince as the bruises on my ribs started to blossom properly. Nice cold bath when I got home would be the ticket.

I was stood outside smoking a fag when I had a sudden gust of the smell of summer holidays blow past me. I raised my cigarette in salute and said goodbye.

Three days later I was still moving a bit stiffly, wondering if I should have tried to find a way to make Michel’s ghost wear gloves.

As I eased myself down into my chair, the phone rang.

“This is Reg, speak, its your bill.”

“Congratulations, Mr Carroll, your work with Mr Lauren was exemplary.” The voice was deep and sounded old, but strong.

“And how do you know about that?”

“I think you might guess who we are, Mr Carroll. We were impressed.”

Great, that alphabet division was taking an interest.

“Well, I am an impressive man. Thanks for the review.”

The voice laughed, genuinely amused “Oh, I like you, Mr Carroll. We’ll be in touch.”

He hung up.

I put the phone down and sipped my coffee.

They’d be in touch, that wasn’t ominous at all. Well, tomorrow would bring what tomorrow brought. Today, I thought I’d try nipping down to Milly’s, see if I could get some Death by Chocolate.

Reg Carroll

Ghostpuncher

Will Return in

Ghostpuncher IV: A Punch to the Faith

© Robert Spalding 2020

Story 27 – Eviction

Number 19, Avon Close had been the home of Georgina Fields for sixty three years. She had moved there with her new husband, Frederick, in the summer of 1957. They had raised two boys, mostly fine young men, who had gone on to marry and live in towns hours away. Georgie, as her friends called her, and Fred, as his called him, had been happy and sad when the boys, Tom and Harry, moved away. They missed their sons, but enjoyed the time they now had to themselves.

In late 2009, Frederick had been diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. By early 2010, he was dead.

Tom and his wife Isabelle had stayed with Georgie for a month after the funeral, but eventually had needed to go back to their home and jobs. Harry lived slightly closer and would make monthly visits to check on his mum. These slowly decreased to bi-monthly before becoming six monthly by late 2018.

Georgie had struggled after the death of Fred and the ever decreasing frequency of her son’s visits had started to take a toll on her.

She changed after she made a new friend.

Valentina Fell DeLortoro Masi, Val to her friends, Miss Masi to everyone else, approached 19 Avon Close at a steady pace.

Had any of the neighbours been looking out of their windows during her arrival, they would have seen a woman in a smart grey suit, with grey trousers and sensible black shoes, fade into view as she walked closer to number 19. They probably would have assumed it was a trick of the light and gone about their day, except for perhaps a little curiosity as to what someone so official looking might want with Georgie.

They would be wrong on two of their assumptions. Firstly, it was no trick of the light, Miss Masi had indeed faded in to this world. Secondly, her business was not with Georgie.

Miss Masi rang the doorbell of number 19 and stepped back a pace from the door. A clipboard and pen appeared in her hands, objects an onlooker would not have seen before she needed them.

The door opened and Georgie looked at her visitor, a confused and worried look on her lined face.

“Are you Georgina Fields?” Miss Masi asked.

“Yes, dear. Who might you be?”

Miss Masi made a mark on her clipboard “First lie.” She looked the old woman in the eyes “I am here from the DPLA, please let me in.”

Georgie looked away, as though thinking, then back to Miss Masi “I’m sorry, who are the DPLA?”

Miss Masi glared “Do not play stupid. You know full well who I am. Let me in.”

“I really don’t know what you are talking about. This is my home, please leave.”

Georgie tried to shut the door but Miss Masi held it open, pushing back against it with surprising strength.

“Second and third lie. You begin to annoy me.”

Georgie backed up, her eyes looking past Miss Masi for someone to call or help. The street was empty apart from her unwanted visitor.

“I am not going to go away. This issue is not going to go away. Let me in.” Miss Masi glared through her glasses.

“This is my house. You can’t just barge in.” Georgie wailed.

“Repeating the third lie does not make it true.”

Backing away from the hard stare of the woman in her doorway, Georgie made a half hearted gesture of welcome and Miss Masi stepped over the threshold and sniffed.

“My house does not smell.” Georgie said, furious at the implication.

Miss Masi smiled at her “I was not smelling the house. Now then, why don’t we find somewhere to sit. You make some tea and we shall discuss what happens next.”

“Tea? You haven’t even told me why you are here.”

“Oh, haven’t I? My apologies.” Miss Masi reached into her jacket pocket and handed Georgie her card.

It read

Miss Masi

Authorised Expeditor

Eviction Department

DPLA

“Eviction? But I own this house?”

“Repetition and rephrasing of the second lie. Come now. Make some tea and we shall discuss this calmly and come to a conclusion that is suitable for all three parties.” Miss Masi smiled, the hard look softening for a moment.

Miss Masi was sitting primly on the forward edge of the settee when Georgie entered the living room carrying two mugs of tea. Six sugars and condensed milk in hers, normal milk and no sugar for Miss Masi.

The woman from the DPLA had the clipboard resting on her lap and her pen was in her hand, poised to begin filling in the stack of forms which the clipboard held.

Georgie handed the mug of tea to Miss Masi, who took it with her free hand. The woman sniffed it and smiled “No bleach. No poison. Very good, I hope we can remain civilised.”

“Why would you think I would poison your tea?” Georgie asked, thinking that would have been a better choice than the knife tucked into her waistband.

“This is not my first eviction.” Miss Masi sipped her tea and Georgie began to reach for the knife. “On that note, please remove whatever weapon you have concealed about your person and place it on the floor. An attack on my person will require more forms and I will no longer be predisposed to be nice about this matter.”

Georgie forced a sheepish grin on her face and slowly pulled out the knife and placed it down in the middle of the room, away from her own chair, which she sat in heavily, feeling defeated.

“Let us begin with the easy questions. Name?”

“Georgina Fields.”

“Repetition of first lie.” Miss Masi ticked a box. “Name?”

“Georgie.”

Miss Masi tutted, made a few quick notes and pulled the form from her clipboard, crumpled it up and swallowed it.

“I do so dislike having to do that. Please do not make me do it again.”

Georgie swallowed “I’m sorry.”

“Fourth lie.” Miss Masi sipped her tea. “This is nicely brewed, thank you.”

Georgie nodded and sipped her own, savouring the sweetness of it.

“When did you move in to this house?”

“June 1957.”

“Fifth lie. If you make me eat this form then the polite stage of this interview is concluded, do you understand?”

Georgie nodded.

“Date you moved in to this house?”

“February 8th 2019.”

The pen made a note “Thank you. When was cohabitation first discussed?”

Georgie swallowed “Do you mean between us or with the Department?”

Miss Masi glared “As you never submitted a request to the DPLA for permission to cohabitate, the answer to that question is obvious do you not think?”

“December 24th 2019.”

“I take it loneliness was an instigating factor?”

“Yes.” Georgie felt small.

“And your reason for not requesting permission was?”

“I didn’t know I had to.”

“Sixth lie. Do not let it reach seven lies. My hands are tied, so to speak, if that occurs.” Miss Masi’s voice was calm but her face betrayed an inner fury.

“I’m sorry.”

“So then, now that we have established you cannot hide from me. Name?”

“Mark Hutchinson.” Georgie’s body said.

“Thank you. Now then, I need to hear from Georgina.”

Mark moved Georgie’s hand to wipe away the sweat which had started to form on her brow. “Well, Georgie’s sleeping right now. She’s old, she likes to nap.”

Miss Masi’s eyes narrowed “Indeed. Unfortunately you will have to wake her up, this process cannot proceed without the owner’s input.”

Mark nodded and gulped “I’ll try, give me a moment.”

Georgie’s eyes rolled up into her head and then back to normal before widening in surprise to see Miss Masi sitting on her settee “I’m sorry, dear, I must have had a moment. Who are you? I’m afraid I don’t remember.”

Miss Masi glared at Georgie “I will not count this as the seventh lie just yet.”

“Excuse me?” Georgie was confused.

“Mark, let Georgie speak to me or I will be forced to assume that your tenancy is not the wishes of the owner.”

Georgie’s mouth curled into a nasty sneer “How did you know?”

Miss Masi used her index finger to push her glasses up “Your hand did not shake when you saw me. There was no panic to her seeing a stranger in her house, drinking her tea. You gave instant acceptance of the fact. Georgie would have shown a little fear, either at me or herself for not knowing what is going on. That’s just the simple, observable facts.”

“She could have been made of sterner stuff, after all, we’ve been doing this for seven months.”

“Perhaps,” Miss Masi pointed directly at Georgie’s body, “but I can smell your soul. It did not change when Georgie supposedly appeared.”

Mark felt the sneer slip off of Georgie’s face “Oh.”

“If you do not allow me to speak to Georgina, right now, you leave me with no option but to take the position that your have taken her hostage.”

Mark’s laugh sounded strange coming from Georgie’s throat , her voice had never held such malice in all of her lifetime and struggled to really let it through. “I wouldn’t say taken hostage. That would imply she’s in here somewhere. This more of a soul occupancy body.”

Miss Masi carefully placed her mug of tea on the little side table, being careful to ensure it was on a coaster. She inhaled, deeply, and Georgie’s body registered a drop in temperature, goosebumps forming on her forearms.

“Have you performed an illegal eviction, Mark? Your file has no record of you having the skills for that.”

The uncomfortable laugh came out of Georgie’s mouth again “Maybe I do, maybe I don’t.”

Miss Masi focused her gaze on the side of Georgie’s face, watching a single bead of sweat roll down it. Without speaking to Mark again, she began filling in forms at a furious pace.

“What are you doing, Miss Masi?” He asked, using Georgie’s sweetest tones.

“Filing for an emergency, forcible eviction. You really have left me no choice.”

“Is that really legal?” Mark made Georgie sneer, “After all, they say possession is nine tenths of the law.”

He launched Georgie’s ageing body across the room, lunging to pick up the knife. Miss Masi reacted faster than he expected her to.

The woman from the DPLA leapt up from the settee, still writing on the form. As Mark used Georgie’s hand to throw the knife, Miss Masi ducked out of the living room. The knife shot through the open door and stuck itself into the framed photograph of Tom and Isabelle.

Miss Masi said nothing, but Mark could hear the pen still writing on the form.

“Come now, dearie, come and play with Georgie.”

The pen stopped writing and Miss Masi stepped back into view. She held the form before her, like a talisman to ward him off. That wasn’t going to work.

“This is your last chance. Voluntarily surrender your illegal occupation of Georgina Fields or be forcibly removed.”

Mark wagged Georgie’s finger at Miss Masi “Tut tut, dear. You can’t rip me out. That would leave this body vacant. You know what that means. I know there are rules about making zombies.”

Miss Masi gave a half smile and raised her eyebrow at him “Empty? Oh, I don’t think so. You can’t destroy her soul and I’ve had people checking. Georgina Fields has not been registered as a new arrival at any point in the last three years. We checked further back than your arrival just to be sure.”

“You checked? Do you honestly expect me to believe that? You haven’t spoken to anyone but me since you arrived.” The confidence was slipping.

Now it was Miss Masi who tutted “We are efficient, you know. All of these details were checked and verified before I arrived. The only thing I had to ascertain before beginning proceedings is whether your cohabitation was a mutual decision or forcible entry on your part. It was only because you hedged your answer when I asked if you could expel her that you did not speak a seventh lie.”

“So, what do you think happened?” Mark taunted.

“You have trapped Georgina’s soul, most likely within your own.” Miss Masi held the form higher “Once I submit this form, I will have authorisation to forcibly remove you. If you have done as I suspect, then the only way for me to remove you an ensure Georgina’s safety will be to rip your soul apart. I’m afraid that will mean a return to the waiting room for millennia as your soul puts itself back together. After that, well, you will not be granted an outside licence again and I doubt Upstairs will take you. You understand what that means?”

Georgie’s head nodded “Of course. But it’s not like surrendering will improve my options.”

“That would depend on Georgina’s side of the story.”

“I’ll take my chances. You don’t look that scary.” Mark forced his laugh out of Georgie again.

“Very well.” Miss Masi threw the form into the air and it vanished.

Mark had followed the form’s flight and when he looked back down he saw Miss Masi removing her glasses and putting them into her jacket pocket.

Laughing, Mark moved Georgie’s body into a boxers stance, hands up and ready to fight “Let’s do this then.”

“As you insist.” Miss Masi replied.

Flinging her arms wide, the woman from DPLA screamed, her voice becoming inhuman. Her fingers elongated, gaining two extra joints. Her nails extended and curved, becoming wickedly shape talons. Her irises and pupils faded away, leaving her eyes completely white. The grey suit became white, shredding and tearing until it was a white dress, aged and ragged. Her teeth became fangs, a mouthful of daggers ready to shred and tear flesh and spirit alike. The tight bun of her hair unfurled, revealing its length to be over ten feet long, it fanned around her whole body before twisting itself into tentacles ready to strike.

Mark made Georgie’s body put its hands up and yelled “I surrender.”

The terrifying ghoul ceased screaming and tilted its head to the side, quizzically.

“I’m serious. You are the scariest thing I have ever seen. I’ve changed my mind. I surrender.”

“Exit the premises.” The Miss Masi ghoul hissed.

“Gladly.” Georgie’s body as back down in her armchair and a man in his mid forties, starting to go bald and with a slight belly stepped out of her. “Seriously, I surrender.”

The ghoul pointed one talon at the settee “Sit.”

Mark did so.

“Oh my God! What is that?” Georgie, now back in control of her body and seeing the situation for the first time, screamed, pointing at Miss Masi.

The pale face of the ghoul flushed red with embarrassment and the transformation undid itself within a second. Miss Masi pulled her glasses out of her pocket and put them back on.

“I do apologise, Mrs Fields.” She said.

“What is going on?” Georgie screamed and then saw Mark on the settee “Mark? Why have you left me?” She started to cry.

Mark stood from the settee, ignoring Miss Masi’s glare and put his arm around Georgie’s shoulders. Except, he was not touching her, he couldn’t any more.

Miss Masi sat back down on the settee, picked up her tea and sipped it “Still warm. Mrs Fields, I suspect the cup next to you is also still warm. May I suggest you drink some.”

Georgie looked to Mark for reassurance that it was ok and he nodded.

She took a sip and gasped “How sweet is this?”

Now it was Mark’s turn to be embarrassed “Sorry, Georgie. I knew it was likely to be my last one so I went a little overboard, hoping to get a full smack of the sweetness.”

“Its fine, love. But what do you mean, last chance?”

Mark pointed to Miss Masi “She’s here to evict me. What we did, well, I didn’t get permission.”

Georgie glared at Miss Masi “And who are you to make my friend leave?”

“My name is Miss Masi. I work for the Department of Post Life Affairs.”

“That doesn’t explain much.”

“We oversee the actions of Post Life individuals until they are permanently rehomed. There are rules as to their conduct, unfortunately, Mark broke those rules.”

Georgie thought about this “Does that mean we have to pay a fine?”

“Unfortunately, Post Life individuals do not have anything we could use to fine them with and we don’t require money, so you could not pay for him.”

“Are you going to take him away?” Georgie asked, tears filling her eyes.

“Mark is going to come with me, yes. Before we go, I do want to hear from you about how this occurred. Your evidence could prove decisive in the severity of his sanction.”

“I can help him? I’ll do whatever I can to help.” Georgie told her.

Miss Masi was taken aback “You want to help him? He imprisoned you inside your own body.”

Georgie laughed “No. Today was his day, that’s all.”

“I think you had better explain everything to me.” Miss Masi stared at Mark, “If you had explained when I asked, this could all have been so much easier.”

Mark shrugged “I only have a level 2 haunting permit, I knew what we did wasn’t allowed. I was trying to scare you off.”

“Georgina…”

“Call me Georgie, dear.”

“Very well, Georgie. Please tell me the events that led up to today. Starting with Mark’s arrival in his position of resident spirit on the 8th of February 2019.”

Georgie sighed a gulp of the tea, grimaced at the sweetness ad set the cup down “Just needed to wet my throat first. Right then, the day he arrived. Did you do anything on the first day, Mark? I’m not so good with dates anymore.”

“No, Georgie, I was here for a week, learning about you before I moved the first mug. You didn’t suspect anything was going on for over a week after that.” Mark told her, with a smile, the coarseness of his voice long gone. Now he only spoke with tenderness.

“Well then, I’m afraid I couldn’t say what date exactly I realised something was wrong. At first I just thought age was getting to me. He was being mischievous you see, moving my stuff around, but only when I couldn’t see him. I’d put my book down in one room and find it in another and just assume I had absent-mindedly picked it up. I think it was when he saw me crying because I started to think I was going senile that he was more open with the haunting.” She burst into laughter “The first time I saw him act, he had one of my old nighties and was dancing around the bedroom with it. I couldn’t see him, of course, just this white piece of clothing dancing by itself. It was so obviously a ghost that I couldn’t move. Then I clapped.”

Miss Masi frowned, confused “You clapped?”

“Oh yes, I was a ballroom dancer when I was younger, love to watch Strictly these days. I could see that he was moving beautifully, a lovely waltz. I was so impressed that I applauded his performance.”

“Really?” This was directed to Mark, who blushed.

“I took a year of classes before I died.”

“Indeed, please continue.”

“Well, he dropped the nightie and the dancing stopped. I thought that I’d scared him. Think of that, a living person scaring a ghost.” Georgie chuckled “Well, I told him not to be scared of me. Said that they had danced very well. I got no reply at the time, but I did tell him to come back any time if he wanted a bit of company. I didn’t know that he was always here, then.”

“I see. How did the relationship proceed from that point?”

“Well, he became my constant companion, so I imagined. I was always talking to him, about the telly, the news, the book I was reading. I mean, I pretended he was always there, letting him know that it was fine with me if he ever did pop back. Made me feel less lonely.” Georgie looked into Mark’s eyes and smiled, he smiled back.

Miss Masi went to speak, found her voice catch in her throat and covered it with a cough before starting again “Mark, I think I would like to hear your side now. We will come to the co-habitation situation in a moment. What was your perspective on the events Georgie has just relayed?”

“They sound correct.”

“That’s not what I meant.”

Georgie rolled her eyes at Miss Masi “Men can be so dense.” She turned to Mark “She’s trying to help you, you twit. Talk to her.”

Mark gave Georgie a puzzled look, spotted the small smile on Miss Masi’s lips and gulped “Oh. Well, I was trying to give her a bit of a fright with the nightie but I got carried away, lost myself in the dancing. I didn’t even notice her in the room until she applauded. It startled me and I dropped the nightie so she wouldn’t know where I was. I heard her give me the offer to visit any time and I thought that was the kindest thing anyone had said to me in a very long time, even before I died.” He blinked, keeping spectral tears from his eyes “I ceased all of the little tricks I had been playing on her. I’d already been feeling bad because I’d heard and seen her cry because she wasn’t sure she could trust her memory. I didn’t want to be cruel.” He pointed a finger at Miss Masi “Nowhere in the rules does it say I have to be cruel.”

“Indeed. The rules for haunting are quite simple. Occupy a building.”

Mark gaped at her “But, everyone says there’s loads. We all talked about the do’s and don’t’s.”

“Did you talk about them with anyone official?” Miss Masi was obviously fighting to keep the smile off of her face.

“N-no. It was scuttlebutt, rumours. We didn’t want to risk our chances by being the one who didn’t know the rules.” Mark slapped his forehead “The would have said, wouldn’t they? All our talk, all our fear. We didn’t believe them when they said hauntings were down to the individual.””

“I think your training might need a bit of work, dear.” Georgie said, her voice sharp.

“I do not disagree. Continue, please.”

Mark took a moment to compose himself. “I decided to go back into a surveillance mode, find a better way to haunt her. But then she started talking to me, and it was nice. But it didn’t take me long to realise that she was lonely.”

Georgie hushed him but Mark continued “I’m sorry, Georgie, but it was obvious. Your kids didn’t visit, didn’t ring. Your friends had stopped checking in too.” He sucked in a deep breath “That’s when I broke the rules and showed myself to her.”

“What rule?” Miss Masi asked.

“The one about…” Mark trailed off “Her seeing me was never a problem. How could it be? I could have floated above her ever night screaming in her face and I’d have thought that was fine. But introducing myself and being friendly, that was wrong. Except it never was, was it?”

Miss Masi shook her head “No. You are very correct, Georgie. We will have to see about the training and rumour mill amongst haunting candidates.” She finished her tea “You became friends, didn’t you?”

They both nodded.

“Not unusual, it happens often enough that its barely remarked upon.” Her voice hardened “However, what you two did that has brought me here today, that certainly is. I now need you to explain yourselves.”

Mark started to speak but Georgie shushed him “I’ll tell her. I don’t think its right that you take the blame for this, after all, I did offer.”

Miss Masi said nothing, waiting for Georgie to speak.

“We were having such fun. Making each other laugh, he listened to my troubles, encouraged me to reach out to the boys and speak to them on the phone more. I listened to him tell me about his life, but he never told me about what comes next. I want to make that clear. I don’t know what happens after I die. He said that it was a law and he wouldn’t break it because it could hurt me, he wasn’t worried about what might happen to him.”

“He was right, with respect to that. It is indeed a law, not a rule. Any infraction would have been recorded very quickly and punishment would have been, shall we say, unpleasant for you both.”

“Anyway, it was Christmas Eve and I was talking about how much I was looking forward to my turkey and veg and all the treats. And he sighed. He didn’t mean it, it just slipped out. That’s what started it. I asked him why he sighed but he wouldn’t tell me.” She grinned “I got it out of him in the end.”

“You don’t need to tell me the reason. I know exactly what it was.”

“Of course you do, it was only little old me who was in the dark. So I asked if there was any way we could change things so that he could enjoy Christmas a bit.”

“And you told her there was?”

“She’s my friend.” Mark protested “I told her the truth. I also told her I didn’t have the permits.”

“And I told him that it wouldn’t matter for one day. Christmas Day.”

Miss Masi let the small smile expand “And once you had done it, just that one time?” The rest was unspoken.

“Yes, dear. My fault. Whenever I found something new and tasty at the shops, I wanted him to try it. Or if the flowers in the garden smelled particularly nice.” Georgie finished her own tea “Do you know what its like to be old, Miss Masi?”

“I am older than you would suspect, Georgie.”

“Obviously, dear. No, do you know what it is like to have an old body? Full of aches and pains?”

“I do not.”

“Well, its better than the alternative, but it can wear you down. But when Mark was in charge, the body was his. Do you see?”

“You were free, just for a time.”

“Exactly. And so I persuaded him to come to an arrangement with me. Two days a week, he gets my body. As long as he didn’t break it or stuff me so fat that I couldn’t move. No drugs and only a little bit of alcohol in the evening. He got a bit more life, after all I’ve lived longer than he did. I got a weekend without all the little annoyances just being old brings.”

“So, what do you do when he has control?” Miss Masi’s asked, curious.

“Relax. I don’t look through my eyes or listen through my ears. I just replay memories. Mostly of my Fred. How to explain it? Its like being in a cinema but you are in complete control of what you see.”

A new clipboard and form had appeared on Miss Masi’s lap, a new pen in her hand. Neither Mark or Georgie saw it appear.

“Do you have anything to add, Mark?”

“Only an appeal for clemency on Georgie’s behalf. She doesn’t know what comes next. She didn’t really understand that this was against the rules. I would like her ignorance on these matters taken into account.”

“Nothing for yourself?”

Mark shook his head “I knew better. I just, didn’t want to send in the forms because if they said no, I’d have to stop because you could do a spot check at any time once you knew we were considering it. I didn’t want Georgie to lose that time.”

The pen flew across the form.

“I have almost everything I need.” Miss Masi hold out her hand “The forms please, Mark.”

Mark was puzzled “What forms?”

“The ones for co-habitation. Please retrieve them from your Pocket.”

Georgie’s head perked up at the sound of Miss Masi’s voice on the word ‘pocket.’ She looked at the clipboard and saw it had nothing on it. She looked into Miss Masi’s eyes and saw them twinkling with hidden mirth.

“Get the forms then, Mark. The ones you filled in but forgot to send.”

Mark was lost “But I didn’t forget…”

“The forms you forgot to send in.” Georgie cut him off before he could spoil it “The ones that are definitely in your pocket.”

“But Georgie…”

“Just look Please, Mark.”

Still confused Mark reached into the air, pulled his hand back and was shocked to find a sheaf of forms in his hand.

“Thank you.” Miss Masi had crossed the room in the blink of an eye and plucked them from his hand. “Oh yes, all in order, just missing the official stamp.” She pulled something out of her jacket, a finger bone and pressed the end of it to the form. “Excellent. I’ll be sure to back date the authorisation.” She smiled at Georgie “A pleasure to meet you, Georgie.”

“And you, Miss Masi.”

“Please, call me Val.”

With that, Miss Masi took her leave, gently closing the front door behind her.

“What just happened?” Mark asked Georgie, still lost.

“Everything and nothing, dear.” Georgie told him “Now then, do you want to watch some telly together or do you want the rest of your day?”

Still not entirely sure what had happened, but feeling very relieved, Mark smiled at his best friend “Let’s watch something on the box.”

Had anyone been watching the woman in the smart suit walking out of Avon Close, they would have been very surprised to see her fade out of view. But no-one was.

Had anyone who knew Valentina Fell DeLortoro Masi seen her walking out of Avon Close, they wouldn’t have been surprised to see her fade away. However, they would have been surprised to hear her giggling with glee as she did so.

© Robert Spalding 2020

Story 26 – Gota Bloody Eyes Must Die!

The hand that held Shima around the throat was larger than his head. It clenched, briefly, giving him a moment of choking panic before he was flung to the side.

“Stay down, boy.” The deep, terrifying voice of Gota Bloody Eyes commanded. “I will kill you if you attempt to attack again. Do not let the fact that you are a child deceive you into thinking I will spare you.”

Shima remained curled in a ball on the floor, looking at the enormous villain, his pathetic fruit knife now utterly useless held in the gigantic hands.

Gota stood eight feet tall and seemed nearly as wide. He carried no weapon and claimed none could harm him either. He had gained his name due to the whites of his eyes being a crimson red.

Shima could only watch as the monster dragged his father’s dead body out the door of their home.

Why had Father been so determined not to pay the tribute? The rest of the village had told him that it was much easier to pay, Gota only took a small amount from each, he would not starve because of it.

But Father had been a soldier for Duke Legrand, he had his pride and his skill in swords. He told the rest of the village that they were cowards. He might have only lived among them for six months, but he had believed them to be people of conviction. How wrong he was that they would bow down to this so-called Bandit King without a fight.

They had tried so hard to persuade him not to fight, but he had been determined.

When Gota entered the village, his men following, the others had laid their tributes on their steps and hidden inside their houses. Not Father, he had waited for them in the village square, sword at the ready and demanded that Gota fight him. That he would not let a common thief simply walk away with what the villagers had worked hard for.

Gota had laughed at the impudence and agreed.

It hadn’t been a fight, it had been an execution. Father managed to swing one blow before the giant laid his hands upon him.

He had pummelled, wrenched and beaten Father until he was unrecognisable.

Shima had watched it happen from the house, standing in the doorway instead of hiding as Father had said.

When Gota had thrown Father through the wall of the house, the wood exploding around him, Shima had decided to fight back.

He hadn’t realised father was dead when he picked up the knife, hadn’t known it until he attacked and had it plucked from his hands. He had only known when the monstrous giant had forced him to look into the unseeing eyes of his father.

Now he lay, unable to move as his father’s body was nailed to the village gate, a warning and reminder to the others.

Averting his eyes from the terrible sight, Shima saw the remains of his cake, smashed over the floor.

His tenth birthday cake.

The villagers started out kind, making sure he had enough to eat. Giving him jobs and chores to earn money that he might not starve.

They fixed the wall and debated amongst themselves if they should send him away to the orphanage or one of them take him in. He had only been in the village for six months, none of them were related to him, he didn’t know where any relations of his father’s might be.

The kindness dulled when they found him practising with his father’s sword.

Their warmth became cold as he ran for miles, training his body and declaring himself in training.

Their welcome to him was rescinded when he declared that when Gota Bloody Eyes returned, he would slay the monster.

The day after he made his announcement to Mrs Aemin, the village head woman came to see him. The council had decided he was too young to live by himself. The house would be sold and the money used to send him away to school.

He was to leave the next day.

That night Shima packed his father’s sword, some food and clothes and fled into the woods.

The first month, Shima nearly starved to death. He had not been interested in hunting and trapping when his father had tried to teach him. Had not wanted to learn how to find water and shelter.

He lived to regret his youthful idleness, but just barely.

His first food in a week came when he found a a rabbit wedged between two stones, it must have slipped or the ground shifted. Even then, he nearly lost his meal by freeing the creature before killing it. A last second dive was all that stood between a full stomach and starvation.

He struggled to find water, blind chance leading him to a stream. He did have enough sense to refill his water bottles from it.

Slowly, he learned. The first six months were hard, the forest creatures were canny, afraid of humans and difficult to hunt.

He met two people during these days of wandering, both of them taught him something valuable.

The first was a soldier, a deserter from the war. The man showed him some basics of using a sword in exchange for food. He gave Shima a grounding which the man said would prevent him from stabbing himself in the foot.

That night, while Shima slept, the man left and stole all of his food.

The second person to teach Shima was a bandit. He pounced on the boy, knocking him down and stealing his father’s sword. Shima was forced to learn how to track, teaching himself the signs of the man’s uncaring passage. It took him two days to find him. While the bandit slept, Shima practised his stealthy movement to steal the sword back. He learned a valuable lesson about being certain you target was actually asleep and the bandit chased him through the trees for three days before Shima was certain he had lost him.

He made a home in a cave at the foot of a cliff, an hour’s walk from the nearest water source.

During this time, he did no training with the sword, too focused on simply staying alive.

Once Shima made himself a home, he dedicated himself to the sword. Working outwards from the basics the soldier had taught him, he developed his own fighting style. After a year of training by himself, he knew he needed to test his skills before hunting for Gota Bloody Eyes.

After a year and a half among the trees of the forest, Shima left and searched for civilisation.

At the first own he came to, he asked for the best fighter in town. He was directed to the sword school of Hiban the Long.

Shima challenged Hiban to a match, it was accepted.

Shima’s style was studied by the watchers, his movements unusual to see. They recognised no forms he displayed. His was the style of a self taught swordsman.

Hiban defeated him in two movements, dropping the boy to the floor.

Shima recognised the vast gulf in their skills and begged Hiban to admit him to the school and teach him.

As Shima had no money, Hiban agreed to teach him for a year, in return for doing chores around the school. Shima gladly agreed.

After the year ended, Shima left and went in search of a new opponent to test his skills against.

This became Shima’s life for the next twenty years.

He would spend a year learning from a master while doing the scut work of the school. After the year was up, he would leave, find a new opponent, be soundly beaten by them and then spend a year at their feet to learn from them.

Twenty masters, twenty styles, twenty defeats.

It was as his year studying under Mistress Dumai came to an end that the pattern would change.

“Tomorrow I leave you, Mistress. I thank you for your teaching.” Shima bowed his head and spoke respectfully.

Mistress Dumai sighed “Why would you leave tomorrow?”

“Because I have served you and learned from you for a year, as is my way. I must test myself before I seek Gota Bloody Eyes.”

“I know it is your way. It’s a damn stupid one.”

Shima gasped, while his other masters had expressed disappointment at his leaving, none had insulted him for it before.

“Why is my way stupid?”

“Because you haven’t learned nearly enough. It takes more than a year to learn my style of fighting, as I am sure it takes more than a year to learn the styles of your previous masters. Had I known of your incompetence and intransigence, I would never have agreed to teach you.” Mistress Dumai sounded annoyed.

Shima was insulted “You said I was skilled, that I had a natural prowess.”

“Yes, I did. So what? Natural skill is worthless without investment in refining it. Do you honestly believe that you have improved enough that you are ready to take on Gota Bloody Eyes?”

Shima growled at his now former master “Perhaps I am not yet ready for the monster, but I have improved.”

Mistress Dumai raised an eyebrow “Have you, indeed? When you arrived here, I defeated you in three movements. Test yourself against me once again. Show me that you hav improved your skills.”

Shima nodded, knowing this as the moment to demonstrate his improvement.

The two of them returned to the training floor, the other students came to watch.

They both raised their swords in salute and took their battle stances.

“Are you ready?” Mistress Dumai asked.

“I am always ready.” Shima replied.

The battle began.

Shima had indeed improved.

This time it took Mistress Dumai four movements to defeat him.

Shima stood outside the gate of the school, his face flushed with shame. Mistress Dumai would not re-admit him to the school.

“Please, Mistress, I must improve my skills to enact my vengeance.” He begged.

“You do.” Mistress Dumai agreed, “But you will not improve them here. You do not have the respect for me that I require of a student. How arrogant to think you could gain all of my secrets and knowledge in just one year. I have other students to teach, ones that pay their own way. You have become a perpetual student, always learning but never mastering.”

“I have been arrogant and I am ashamed.” Shima couldn’t help but agree with her assessment.

“However, I will not have it said that I cast out a student without hope when they have only foolishness and not malice in their heart.”

Shima looked her in the face, trying to guess what the hope might be.

“You do not know enough about the opponent you seek. Even were you to surpass me, you would still fail to find your vengeance. Gota Bloody Eyes has drunk from the waters of Yawer.”

Shima gasped, that monster had been allowed to drink the holy waters?

“I see your face, I understand your confusion. He was not allowed to drink, he stole the water. Gota had always been a fearsome warrior but he lusted for more. He managed to fight his way up the Path of Heaven and steal a mouthful of the waters of Yawer with his final moments.”

Shima felt frozen to the spot, the Bloody Eyes had battled the Guards of Heaven and won enough to reach the Yawer, and he had done it without supernatural aid? His claim that no weapon could cut him came back to Shima and he recognised it for truth and not the boast he had assumed.

“My life has been wasted.” He sobbed.

Mistress Dumai rolled her eyes “Did I not just say that I would not send you away without hope? I tell you this that you may realise you have followed the wrong path. You have sought the skills but not the weapon.”

“But no weapon can hurt him.”

“No weapon created by man. Do you know what happens when one drinks from the waters of Yawer?”

“The drinker becomes invincible, growing in size and power. They live longer than mortal men. They are the defenders of Heaven, normally.”

A nod “Yes, that is half correct. But do you think the Gods would be so foolish as to give men this power without a way to stop them if they hold turn evil?”

“I had never considered it.” Shima admitted.

“Few do. The Gods built a safeguard into the gift. When someone drinks of the waters they will bleed onto the stones by the waters edge. Those stones are given to Jikka, the immortal weapon master. He turns the blood and stone to metal and forges an unbreakable weapon, the only one that can kill the drinker. Each weapon is specific to an individual, while you may kill any number of mortals will the weapon, it will injure and kill only the drinker whose blood it contains.”

Shima’s eyes widened as the realisation came to him “Then I need to find this weapon.” His determination turned “I shall walk the Path of Heaven and ask for Gota’s weapon that I may end his terror.”

“You don’t need to go that far. The sword is in a cave in the Moxi mountains. There is a guardian with it. You must convince the guardian of your determination and truth. If you are lucky, they may help you, either with the sword or even with training.”

Shima bowed “I thank you, Mistress. I will not rest until I have achieved my vengeance.”

Mistress Dumai arranged for Shima to be hired as a guard for a merchant caravan heading to towards the mountains. They would not take him all the way to his destination, he would have a three day walk to reach the cave after they parted.

Shima enjoyed the three weeks he spent with the caravan. It as the first time he was part of a community since his father had died. He came to enjoy talking with the other guards at night. He even came close to making some friends. Shima was certain that if he had not departed the caravan, he would have become part of the company. The other men took some time to warm to his serious nature, but once Jangi learned that Shima knew no jokes he made it his personal mission to teach him as many as he could fit in during their time together.

When it was time to part, Jangi handed him a notebook with hundreds of jokes in that he hadn’t had time to tell him yet. Shima promised that if they met again, he would have learned them all and planned to come up with some new ones.

The journey was mostly uneventful, the Duke’s road had a minor bandit problem and so attacks were rare.

They encountered only one small band of them and for the first time Shima used the skills he had spent twenty years acquiring. He defeated his opponents easily, but he saw that the more experienced guards managed the same with less effort and much faster. Mistress Dumai had been right, he had acquired too broad a knowledge, he needed more specificity.

For three days he walked the paths of the Moxi mountains. Huddled against biting winds on the high ridges, marvelling at the sights of beauty below when he walked a common path. In all his travels he had not taken the time to enjoy the world he walked, too focused on his goal. Now that there appeared to be a moment to achieve it, Shima felt lighter in his soul. He knew that it would not come immediately, that he would have to work even harder to succeed, but the key to victory was within his grasp.

At the evening of the third day, as the sun began to bow below the peaks of the mountains, he came to the spring Mistress Dumai told him about. He drank of the cold, pure water before searching for the hidden path.

It wasn’t hidden well, it was simply unused. Plants and stones had grown over the slight wearing down caused by the passage of people. This path led to somewhere that people just didn’t go to any more.

Not long after leaving the spring, Shima found an old, weathered sign which read “Go away.”

His hand reached for his sword, but he stopped himself. It would not do to approach with any appearance of violence.

Another sign, less weathered than the first “I mean it. Go away.”

The guardian must be very choosy on who they see, Shima mused. He wondered if he should have asked for a meeting somehow before arriving.

The path wound higher and the air began to cool as the darkness grew.

He nearly missed the next sign and was barely able to read it in the dim light “Attack Goats on Patrol. Go away.”

This sign was newer still, but had obviously stood for a number of years.

Shima listened carefully for the sound of the attack goats, there was nothing to indicate life.

The path ended at the mouth of a cave where one final sign waited.

“May your feet never be dry again. Go away.”

Shima was suddenly very aware of his feet, the feel of them, his mind thought they were dry, but were they? He had been sweating. Was this sign a curse?

Wet feet would be a small price to pay for his vengeance. He stepped into the cave.

“Hello? I seek the guardian.” He called out.

A moan echoed from deep within the darkness, sadness and frustration were evident in its sound.

“Guardian?”

“Can’t you read?” A voice cried out, cracking with despair.

“I can. But I seek the guardian of Gota’s sword. I seek vengeance upon the monster who…”

“Killed your mother, your father, your sister, that girl you liked, your dog, your cat, whatever it was.” Interrupted the voice. “Of course you do. No other reason for you to be here.”

Shima was taken aback “You know of his evil? Then why do you hide away in his cave? Why do you not end him? That is what the weapon was for!”

Something glowed far away in the darkness, gaining in brightness as Shima looked. No, it wasn’t getting brighter, it was getting closer.

It as a man, younger than Shima, a tidy beard and straight hair that flowed beyond his solders. He did not walk, he floated, a spirit.

“I don’t do nothing about it because I am dead. I am forbidden to harm the living.” The spirt yelled. “I just want to be left alone. I don’t want this. I want to sit in the dark with Golden Swallow and wait for my vigil to end.”

“Golden Swallow?” Shima asked.

The spirit rolled his eyes at Shima “You don’t even know the name of that which you seek?”

Shima could only shrug “While I have trained for twenty years to defeat Gota, I only learned of his power and the sword three days ago. I was not informed of the name.”

The spirit calmed down and looked at Shima critically “Twenty years of training, you say? A master swordsman?”

Shima cast his eyes down “I do not call myself such.”

The spirit clapped “Modesty, how marvellous. I am Tungo, first blade of the Zona school. Come with me.”

Tungo summoned a ball of light to guide Shima’s steps and walked back into the cave. Shima didn’t know what had caused the sudden change in the spirit, perhaps all the others who came here were self proclaimed masters and their arrogance was too much to bear. He wasn’t going to waste this chance, however. He followed the spirit of Tungo into the dark.

The walk was long, but Tungo did not speak until they reached an open space where the cave ended. Shima thought he could hear whispers coming from the walls. Voices that cast doubt upon him. It was a test, one he must overcome to wield the blade.

Tungo cast the glowing orb up to illuminate the space. In the centres resting upon a rock was a beautiful weapon.

The hilt glowed with golden light, reflecting from the orb. The guard was the outspread wings of a swallow. The hilt itself was the body of the bird. A dark sheath covered the blade and Tungo gestured for him to pick it up and unsheathe the sword.

Reverently, Shima picked up Golden Swallow and removed the sheath.

The blade was flawless, its cutting edge so sharp that even the air felt like it split upon it.

“You are the wielded of Golden Swallow now. Go forth and slay the monster.”

Shima resheathed the blade and bowed to the spirit.

“I cannot go yet, I must learn your style of swordsmanship. This is what my last teacher told me.”

“What!” Tungo was outraged. “You said you have studied for twenty years, you must have a style Of your own that will suffice. You must be a Master.”

Shima kept his head down “I have studied at twenty different schools for a year each. I was foolish and never mastered a single one of them.”

Tungo stared at him and then began laughing before he started to cry.

Shima felt a great shame, he had received Golden Swallow only because of a misunderstanding.

“I will give up the blade until I am worthy of it.”

Tungo laughed again “Oh yes, that’s easy. Just give it up. Its not like I just told you that you were the wielded of Golden Swallow. Not like this is a mystical blade that is wielded by just one person until their death in battle. Give it up, why not?”

Shima’s face flushed with shame, it burned. He had defiled something sacred.

“If I can not give it up, then I must learn from you. I must be taught your style that I may defeat Gota Bloody Eyes.”

Tungo sighed “Of course. Why did I think…” his voice trailed off sadly.

The light went out and all was darkness.

“We are going to sit here in the dark, quietly, until I can think of a way out of this.” Tungo told him.

Shima never knew how much time passed in the dark. Tungo did not speak to him, but he heard mocking laughter and small cries surround him. It was more than a day, but less than a week, for while he finished his water, he did not start to feel the strong pain of hunger.

Without warning the globe of light reappeared, hurting his eyes He could just make out Tungo standing in front of him.

“You will show me what you already know. We shall go into the light that I may see your form fully.” The spirit turned away and headed for the exit.

Shima scrambled to his feet, keeping a tight grip on Golden Swallow, not wishing the weapon to be sullied by the dirt of the floor.

Shima stepped out of the cave mouth beside the sign about wet feet. Tungo stayed inside.

“Show me a ready stance, prepare for battle.”

Shima placed his feet and drew his father’s sword, unwilling to use Golden Swallow yet. He set himself, ready to launch an attack.

“What is that? Your feet are in Ferret’s Dance, your torso in Ape Roars and your arms, is that supposed to be the Snake Coils?” Tungo yelled, furious.

“My arms are the Waves that Break.” Shima said.

“No they aren’t, Master Fio would cry to see such poor form.” Tungo buried his head in his hands, “You have cobbled together all styles without knowing the purpose of each.” He lifted his head “Strike three times. Deflect a blow, break a stance and strike a killing blow.”

Shima moved with all the grace and power he knew.

Tungo howled “Awful, graceless. Worse than a child picking up a blade for the first time. You would defeat someone distracted, maybe.” The spirit began to cry.

Shima sheathed the sword and bowed “My apologies.”

“Maybe I should send you off anyway. Your confusing mess might distract Gota long enough to get a lucky blow in.”

In his heart, Shima knew the criticism was valid. Mistress Dumai had said as much. He had fallen into a routine of leaving after a year, believing it to be his path. Never realising it was the foolish choice of a child.

“What can I do, Guardian?”

Tungo sighed, looked at Shima, sighed again and appeared to be fighting back tears.

“May I not return the weapon?”

“No, you can not. Golden Swallow can only be wielded by you until you are effected in combat. You are bound to it until Gota Bloody Eyes is killed.” The spirit howled to the skies “I am mocked. Forever mocked.”

“Will you teach me, then?”

Tungo glared “I am not left with much choice, for all the good it will do. This first year will be spent making you unlearn everything the last twenty years has taught you. I’d rather you were a babe than this mix of styles.”

True to his word, Tungo taught Shima nothing for the next year. Instead he forced him to unlearn all that he had acquired.

At first Shima had thought it would not take a whole year, but when, after the first month, he still could not stand without placing his feet into one of the many stances of the twenty styles he had learned, he began to wonder if a year was long enough.

Tungo would berate and curse him for his overtaught foolishness. Shima did not even hold a sword until the eleventh month wen Tungo began to unteach all the grips he had learned.

Six days after the year had passed, Tungo was satisfied that Shima had reverted to a know nothing. All of his ingrained habits were gone. He was malleable again.

The next day Tungo allowed him his first ever day of rest and suggested he spend it sleeping, for the true training would begin the day after.

Before Tungo, Shima would have sad that Master Duler was the toughest teacher he had ever studied under. Master Duler would hang students by the arms in the midday sun and have them hold themselves up by strength alone. Master Duler believed that beating students with practice swords made them unafraid of pain. Thirst, starvation, injury, tiredness, all of these were obstacles to overcome for students of Master Duler. He was a tyrant who didn’t care for his students at all.

Shima would have gladly lived the rest of his life under the tutelage of Master Duler than spend a moment longer than necessary under the guidance of Guardian Tungo.

There were two things about Tungo’s teaching that made life so hard. The first was that he demanded absolute perfection, the placement of feet and body shape would be criticised and corrected if they were even a hair’s breadth out of place. Every motion had to b exact. Whole weeks would pass simply on one footstep.

The second was more hurtful. Tungo did not appear to want to teach Shima his style. He did so, but there was no joy of instruction, no passion that his student was learning. When Tungo said it was all a waste of time, Shima did not get the impression it was because he was not learning, for he was. As the months and years passed, he became perfect in everything Tungo taught him. But his Master gave sign of happiness his student was mastering he techniques and style.

Even as he achieved all that was asked of him, Shima never felt a sense of accomplishment.

The training took thirteen years. On the day that Tungo had him run through every exercise, every motion, every defence and attack and Shima performed them all perfectly, his Master told him that he had nothing left to teach him.

“So, I am ready to kill Gota Bloody Eyes.” Shima said.

“No, you are not.” Tungo replied, his voice tired and sad.

That day, Shima left the cave which had been his home for thirteen years, the longest time he had ever spent in one place his entire life. He was forty four years old and in the best shape of his life. His muscles were toned an in perfect condition for swordplay. His mind was sharp in combat, his movements adaptable and deadly.

He would never be more ready to kill Gota Bloody Eyes.

The paths he had taken to the cave had changed little in the intervening years. He took the time, once again, to marvel at the beauty of the world.

When he found himself at the road once more, he saw more travellers passing than had been upon it during his nature trip with the caravan.

Shima called out to an old couple pulling a cart loaded with belongings.

“Why are so many of you on the road? Are you all travelling towards something or away?”

“Away.” Yelled back the woman “Gota Bloody Eyes is conquering the kingdom. Its said he will even take the capital and declare himself King.”

Shima was taken aback, Gota had survived as a bandit chief for years, why would he want to rule a kingdom now? He asked the old couple.

“He fell in love with the King’s daughter. The King refused to let the Princess marry a bandit. So Bloody Eyes said if that was the case, he may as well be the King himself.”

Shima bade the old couple farewell and looked closer at the travellers. All looked tired. There were no men of fighting age amongst them, no women either now he really looked. Only children, cripples and old people.

War had come to the kingdom while he trained. How many people were suffering and dying?

He could end this, he could save them all. Simple vengeance remained at his core, but the desire to protect everyone he could was a stronger emotion.

Walking against the tide of refugees, Shima walked along the road, heading for battle.

For three months Shima made his way towards Gota Bloody Eyes and his army. In that time he defeated five of the bandit would-be-king’s trusted lieutenants. None of them had cause to make him need more than four movements to strike them down.

The legend of the Golden Swallow ran ahead of him. Wherever he came across Gota’s men, battle would be declared and the mystical blade would make short work of the common soldiers.

Shima found his way to the main army battle camp. There were thousands of soldiers inside and he knew that he could not hope to defeat them all by himself. So he sent a challenge to Gota, declaring his reign of blood to be over. That the Golden Swallow had come for his head at last.

Shima did not expect much, perhaps a small contingent to be sent for him. He could draw them away and kill them with a hit and run strategy or maybe draw them into conflict with the King’s forces which opposed them. All he needed was a weakening, an opening to strike at that hated monster, Gota Bloody Eyes.

What he received was a messenger who said “Lord Gota accepts your challenge, wielder of Golden Swallow. He will see you and your Master at dawn. You have the night to prepare your soul.”

The messenger left Shima, standing alone.

“He will see my Master? Does he not know he is a spirit trapped in a cave?” Shima wondered aloud.

“Who said I was trapped in that cave?” Master Tungo said, appearing beside him.

Shima gasped “Master, how are you here?”

“You didn’t listen to anything I said about Golden Swallow. Never mind. We will wait in silence for the dawn. Prepare yourself.” Tungo knelt upon the grass and closed his eyes, clearly not in the mood to answer any questions.

Shima knelt beside his Master and prepared himself for the duel.

Just before the light of the sun began to illuminate the day, Shima was stirred from his meditation by the sound of horns.

They blew a triumphal note and came from the camp of Bloody Eyes.

Rousing himself to stand, Shima looked to the camp and saw, for he first time in over thirty years, the huge figure of Gota Bloody Eyes walking towards him. The beast was flanked by an honour guard holding torches.

As they drew close and the sun lit the scene, Shima could see that the monster had not aged a day.

“Welcome, wielder of Golden Swallow.” Gota gave him a mocking bow. “Welcome, Tungo.” The bow to his Master was deeper and sincere.

Shima did not return the bow, but Master Tungo did, just as respectfully as the one given to him.

“What brings you to me, holder of the blade? What wrong did I do you?” Gota smiled, clearly not caring what the reason was.

“You killed my father.”

Gota shrugged “I’ve killed many fathers. Is there some reason yours should stick out to me?”

“I doubt it. He was just a man defending his home.”

“So, it is vengeance then?”

“It was. Then I saw the devastation your war has wrought. I have seen the suffering you leave behind. I will end this and spare the innocents you have yet to harm.” Shima yelled.

Master Tungo turned to face him, wide eyed “You’ve changed your mind? Again? Can you never simply focus?”

Shima didn’t turn away from his enemy “My vengeance is my core. My desire to protect others is warmed by it.”

Master Tungo threw up his arms “I knew it. I should have put up more signs or actually trained some attack goats.”

Gota laughed, full of dark humour “Shall we begin? I want to eat my breakfast while it is hot.”

Shima drew Golden Swallow “Your breakfast will go uneaten.”

“Interesting words as a battle cry. Do you have anything to add, Tungo?”

Master Tungo shook his head.

Gota stepped forward of his men and the spirit of Master Tungo faded from sight.

“Any last words, boy? Or are you happy with your breakfast comment?”

“My name is Shima Diama. You killed my father. Prepare to die.”

Gota shook in mock fear “Ooh, much better. Whenever you are ready.”

Without another word, Shima shot forward, his first movement, Eel Bites.

Gota dodged the strike and kicked at his legs.

Leaping into Frog on a Cloud, Shima moved into Rain Soaks Board.

Gota ducked and grabbed his forearm, pulling him to the ground.

The two parted.

“Two movements, no-one has ever made it to five. Let’s see how you do.”

Shima did not reply, shocked at how easily his attacks had been evaded. He would aim for disabling blows instead, take off the beast’s hands to neuter him. Then he could go for the killing stroke.

He got halfway through Petals in the Storm effort Gota’s huge hand closed around his throat.

Shima stared into the red eyes of the monster ad saw them twinkle with laughter “Two and a half. Not bad.” He snapped Shima’s neck. “Not good either.”

Shima was dropped to the floor, dying as his body failed to breathe. The world fading away as he saw Master Tungo lift Golden Swallow from the floor.

“How many is that now, Tungo?” Gota asked the spirit.

The darkness was everything as Tungo replied “Seventeen.”

“Another failure.”

“How many movements?”

“Ask him.”

“You ask him.”

Shima became aware of voices around him in the darkness, whispering, laughing, crying.

Then there was light, Mastr Tungo replacing Golden Swallow upon the stone. He was back in the cave.

“Master Tungo. What happened?” Shima called out.

Master Tungo dropped his head “You lost. What do you think happened?”

“But how? How could I have lost?”

“Because he was better than you.” Tungo replied, as tough talking to a simpleton.

“But I mastered your techniques. I mastered your style. The style of the guardian of Golden Swallow.”

Master Tungo whirled around, throwing his hands to the air “So what?”

“So, your style is that of Golden Swallow. The style created to defeat Gota Bloody Eyes.”

Master Tungo burst out laughing, holding his belly as waves of hysteria consumed him “Who…who told you that?”

“But, its obvious.”

Master Tungo pointed a finger “You never listened. Try doing so now. I am the Guardian of Golden Swallow, the first to wield it. I was already a Master Swordsman when I was given that honour. Wielding Golden Swallow gifts immortality until defeated in battle or the destruction of Gota Bloody Eyes. Just like me, you are now bound to Golden Swallow until his death. The same as the others here. Say hello everyone.”

A cacophony of voices filled the cave until Tungo motioned them to be silent.

“If that is true, how are you a spirit?” Shima demanded.

Tungo shook his head “Still you don’t understand, do you? Gota killed me hundreds of years ago. My style was no match for him then. I don’t know why you thought the technique of a dead man would be the superior choice!”

© Robert Spalding 2020

Story 25 – Return to Breaker Street

To everyone else, 6 Breaker street was just another terraced house. A simple 3 up 2 down, red brick house.

The neighbours might grumble about the overgrown garden, the moss in the gutters, the just noticeable lack of pride in its appearance. Someone who didn’t live in the street wouldn’t give it a second glance, it was simply just one of many.

To Gary the house squatted there, oozing a deep sadness and dark energy. He could see it as thick ropes of tar that dripped down the walls, bleeding into the front garden, staining the pavement in front. The windows glared, watchful eyes that gave no privacy to those inside or out. The front door, peeling blue paint, was a mouth that chewed up those who entered.

It had been his home for twenty years.

No, that wasn’t right. Home was where you laughed, where you lived. A place of memories you would choose to recall.

He had never lived in number 6, he had existed there. Had slept and eaten there. He had never been allowed to live there.

It wasn’t home, it was the place he had escaped from.

Resting his hand on the weathered and broken wall in front of the house, Gary wondered if this was worth it. He could just pay people to clear it out. To remove the last vestiges of her.

Vanessa had told him that he didn’t owe this to anyone. That he should only do this if it wanted to. The feeling of obligation he felt was the last echo of her, her wants and needs. The things that had made him so unhappy. Vanessa told him that she would support him if he really wanted to do this, but he should only do this for himself. He didn’t owe it to anyone.

Gary told her that he wanted to, but he was lying to himself. That last bit of her still tugged at him. Telling him that a Good Son would see to this, wouldn’t leave her things to strangers. And he had been a Bad Son, he had abandoned her when she needed him and now see what happened.

His fingers gripped the wall, feeling some of the brick crumble under them.

This was a house of disease, a place of infection. Leaking its poison into everyone who came by. Happiness was intolerable, misery was king.

He could feel it on the wall, a sticky, oily feeling.

Gary jerked his hand away and rubbed it on his trousers. There was nothing on his hand except some crumbs of brick. Nothing cold and slimy. It was all in his head.

He should walk away, ring the company Vanessa had found, pay the money and forget about the house until it sold.

He should, he didn’t need this.

The key was in the lock.

Walk away. Forget this place. Let time paper over the chasms in his life until some good memories could surface.

He couldn’t make himself leave. Even now he still felt the guilt of being a Bad Son.

Gary opened the door.

His senses overloaded the instant the door swung inwards.

His nose recoiled from the stench, stale alcohol, piss, vomit, rotting food.

His eyes couldn’t find purchase on a single object, too many empty bottles and cans littered the floor. Empty takeaway containers piled in place of furniture. Broken things, twisted things. The remain of something burnt. What had been the lounge was a rubbish tip.

His tongue tasted burning, filth, sickly sweet.

His ears heard the buzzing of flies, a horde of them in constant movement from one piece of filth to another.

His skin felt the warmth and sticky sensation of decay settle on it.

Gary leapt back into the garden, retching. His stomach churned and he battled hard against the urge to vomit.

Hands on knees he sucked in clean air, keeping his face turned away from the house and its emanations.

His whole body rebelled against the encounter, tears flowed from his eyes. Were they in reaction to what had assaulted them or did them come from a place of sadness that she had come to this? Gary couldn’t tell. Sadness filled him, but he didn’t know exactly what it was he was sad about. His emotions refused to be clean, to be understandable. The house had infected him already, twisting things that had been so clean and clear for over twenty years. 

Long, slow, deep breaths and a refusal to think about what was inside the house was the only way Gary could find equilibrium again. Some people may have passed him, he didn’t know or care. His eyes were fixed on the sickly grass beneath him.

His stomach settled. His eyes stopped leaking. Some trace of the stench remained imbedded in his nostrils and he forced himself to only breathe through his mouth.

The house needed a good airing out before he could even think about trying to sort through what remained of her things.

Gary left the front door open and walked away from the house, heading for the alley behind the row of houses to access to back garden. He wasn’t worried about thieves, any opportunistic crook was welcome to anything they could grab before the filth of the house drove them away. Any of them that could stand to putrescence inside to grab any valuables that might remain deeper in the house deserved them for their fortitude.

Six foot tall wooden fences had replaced the short and rusty chain link ones that had been there during his time at number 6. There was no chance she had taken it upon herself to do it, Gary suspected the neighbours had finally tired of seeing her when they wanted to enjoy their gardens. A solid wall to block her view of them, to drive down the verbals and mocking laughter.

He couldn’t blame them, hadn’t he done something similar, in a metaphorical way? Built his fences so high that she couldn’t see him and what he was doing?

He was glad the fences were there. It meant the neighbours couldn’t see the state of the garden, clearly uncared for for years. Weeds and patches of dirt were visible in the places not covered by waste. Empty bottles, cans, bones, junked items covered so much that there was no clear path through.

Gary was forced to pick his way carefully, each step considered and planned. He felt sure that a scratch from anything out here would lead to tetanus almost instantly. Probably some super form of it, mutated and made powerful by the house itself.

This time he stepped aside as he opened the door, avoiding the punch of filth from inside.

For a moment he thought he saw a shimmer in the air as the wave of decay raced out and was that a sigh of release coming from the house? Probably not, but he could imagine the building relieved at finally breathing clean air.

Gary waited in the garden for fifteen minutes, letting the air flow through, hoping to clear out the worst of the atmosphere. He had risked a peek into the kitchen and was horrified by the state of it. A black cloud of flies covered the ceiling above mounds of rubbish. The lounge looked easier to walk through, not quite as much filth, but that meant picking his way back through the garden which seemed infinitely more dangerous.

He heard Vanessa in his head telling him that this wasn’t worth it. Leave it to the professionals and their protective gear.

Head-Vanessa was probably correct, this was too big a job for him alone to do in a day or even a month. But he was here now, he could make a start, clear some room for them to actually work. At the same time, he didn’t know if he could do that. Could he let someone else see how she had lived at the end? Was it from embarrassment for her of embarrassed by her?

Gulping a deep breath of the fresh air, Gary stepped into the kitchen.

Almost immediately he was sure this was a mistake. His thigh brushed a bottle neck and he was forced to leap away from an avalanche of empty whisky and vodka bottles. Had she thrown any away since he had left? He didn’t think so.

Where to start? There was a fresh roll of bin bags in the car, but even using all 30 wasn’t going to make a dent in this. He needed heavy duty gloves to safely touch anything in the kitchen and he didn’t have any.

“Nothing wrong with a drink, darlin’. Sets you up for the day.”

Her words, her favourite saying. Usually followed by a long swig straight out of the bottle.

It had been her life ever since he was old enough to remember.

“Go on, try a bit. It’ll help you sleep.”

He felt the burning taste of vodka on his tongue from his first sips as a 9 year old. It had become an old familiar friend until Vanessa had helped, but that first burn came back to him now. The choking, the crying at not being allowed to spit it out and waste any.

For a moment his balance slipped and there was a memory flash of being a drunk child again.

Then it was gone and his feet were under his control again.

The buzzing of the flies intensified as they swarmed for the back door. They didn’t leave, instead they settled and flew around it, a vortex gate that would need to be passed through to leave. Gary hadn’t planned on going back out yet, but now he was repulsed by that exit.

Too much, this was too much. He needed to leave the kitchen, to see if there was anything salvageable in the lounge.

It was only as he passed through the doorway that connected them that he saw the door had been ripped from its hinges long ago. He wondered if it was buried in the house or out in the garden.

The three piece suite was gone, the set his grandparents had bought her when she moved in. The cream leather he wasn’t allowed to sit on in case he made it dirty as a child. The ones that had become their place as he became a teenager. Their place that now made him shudder to think about some of the things said and done there.

She had loved it, had been the one thing she had always maintained and cared for, better than she had done for him most of the time.

Now it was gone.

How bad had things got for her that the suite was gone? A simple camping chair was by the coffee table, a downgrade so obvious, but still not enough for her to change.

He didn’t fee the tears now, this was the clearest example of what Vanessa had spent years trying to make him see. That she wouldn’t change, didn’t want to change.

The TV was gone too, just a little CD player/radio to fill the emptiness with something other than the shifting sounds of her mess.

The rotting smell of leftover food was baked into the walls, he was sure of it.

Over in the corner there, was that?

It was.

Too lazy, drunk or depressed to go upstairs to the bathroom, she’d just squatted in that corner and…

“Unbelievable.” He muttered.

His voice, even low, sounded loud in the house and now he felt it. The emptiness, the lack of anyone home. It hadn’t registered before, hadn’t sunk in, but this was a house without a soul to it anymore. The soul may have wallowed and leeched the goodness from those it encountered, but it had been here. Now there was nothing.

He should open the windows, help the air clear the place out, but he couldn’t reach them without literally climbing on an unsteady pile of waste. Maybe the ones upstairs would be easier to reach.

“I kept your room, I kept it just right.”

Those words sounded old but also new. That wasn’t what she had said the last time they had spoken. She had told him that she would keep his room, ready for when he left “His little slapper.”

There was a clear path through the lounge to the stairs, at least she’d had enough sense to keep something clear. Gary wondered how many times she had fallen asleep in that camping chair, how much pain her back had been in on those days when she woke up.

He saw the carpet around the chair was covered in burn marks and dropped cigarettes. How close had she come to burning the house down, how many times?

Gary wanted to feel sad for her, but there was only a tiny ember of pity. She had never been this bad when he was here, had it been him leaving that drove her to this?

One side of the stairs was littered with more rubbish, this time only a few bottles, mostly fag packets, baccy packs, crisp packets and other junk food wrappers. Booze had obviously been too important to carry up the stairs open, too much chance it cold get dropped or spilled.

The noise of the flies followed him and when Gary looked down the stairs he saw them buzzing about the bottom step.

For a moment he had the horrible thought that they were following him, but quickly shook it off. He had disturbed enough stuff on his passage through, despite his best efforts, that he must have revealed a forgotten or missed food source.

He opened the door to the bathroom as it was at the top of the stairs, gagged at he stench of stale vomit and whatever else it was before slamming the door shut. That room he would definitely leave for the professionals.

The landing was mostly devoid of rubbish, just a few packets of half eaten crisps and more takeaway boxes. Elsewhere this would have been the most disgusting place in any house, here it was the cleanest he had seen so far.

The spare bedroom door was wedged open by bottles and wouldn’t open at all when he pushed on it. The rubbish inside must have fallen and tried to wedge it closed.

Which room to check next? There was only his and hers left.

His was a memory he could not yet face, the place of that final screaming argument as he packed what he needed.

It could wait until he saw how she had slept, though he could imagine it. Standing in front of the closed door, he took a deep breath of the stale air, fearing what had been trapped inside. In one fast movement he depressed the handle and pushed the door.

He had been right.

Nearly all of the furniture was gone. Her antique chest of drawers, the mirrors her grandmother had passed down to her. Just a flimsy wardrobe, half open displaying a few shirts and a mattress on the floor with two pillows, one thin blanket and no sheet on it. She had even sold or gotten rid of her bed.

His eyes danced around the piles of mouldy clothes, skipping over more empty bottles, over the bed and to the ever present colony of flies making their noisy way around the room.

He snapped his view back to the bed, for an instant he had seen her lying there, shivering under the blanket. But it wasn’t her, the blanket was simply ruffled. But it did move slightly. 

The windows were shut, so there was no breeze to move it. Had an animal crept in?

Gary kicked the mattress to encourage whatever was under there to come out and was rewarded with a black explosion of flies. Thousands, millions. An incomprehensible amount for such a small space.

He shrieked and leapt out of the room, slamming the door shut against the vile tide which flowed towards him.

Pounding his fist against the wall he yelled out his curses, his disappointment, his guilt. That it had come to this, that he had allowed it, that she had allowed it.

It was his fault.

It was her fault.

It was damnation and sadness.

Now he was crying, finally overwhelmed by emotions he had long repressed in regards to her.

“Leave, just leave. Or burn it down. Just leave.” Gary told himself. Knowing that he had to see his room, knowing that he shouldn’t do it to himself.

If he left now, he would never know if she had kept his room waiting for him and he should be fine with that. It shouldn’t matter in the grand scheme of things.

But it did matter.

He wasn’t going to come back here, never again. If he didn’t look now, that nagging question would always tug at him. He had to know, but he didn’t want to.

Something brushed the nape of his neck, soft and ticklish.

Gary swiped at it, yelping at the shock.

Spinning around he saw nothing. Nothing but the spiderwebs which covered the ceiling and trailed down. The webs were empty of life. No spiders, no cocooned flies, no flies trapped and desperate for escape.

“I kept it for you.”

Did he hear those words or did he remember them?

He couldn’t leave, he had to see. He had to know if she had kept faith, even after two decades, that he was still going to come running back to her.

Gary opened the door to his childhood bedroom and sobbed.

It was near pristine.

No flies, no cobwebs. A light coating of dust, but only enough to have formed since she died.

His bed was made, his posters of Thierry Henry and Pulp Fiction still adorned the walls. His clothes hanging in the wardrobe, still missing the doors.

His desk, with a notebook and pen ready for him to note down his thoughts and beside that…

Beside that was a clean glass and an unopened bottle of Smirnoff.

Just waiting for him.

Unconsciously licking his lips, Gary stepped into his room.

That was the bottle she had taken from him two days before he left.

The bottle which had been the pebble to shake loose the boulders, creating the avalanche which separated them forever.

Gary ran his fingers over the bottle, daring it to be fake. It was real.

“Hello, old friend.” he murmured, not hearing the slight slur in his voice.

He was licking his lips still, the ghost of the burn and taste on his tongue.

“Have a drink to your Mum.”

Gary shook his head “No, it was have a drink with your Mum.”

But he could, couldn’t he? Have a drink to her, remember her one last time with the thing they had shared?

Head-Vanessa was trying to speak, telling him that this was a bad idea. Head-Vanessa should stop being such a killjoy.

One drink wouldn’t hurt.

Just the one.

Gary spun the lid off and heard a sigh of pleasure. He didn’t member making it, but he must have.

He poured a dribble into the glass, enough to taste, not enough to be a real drink.

“Is that it? Be a man.”

Her voice or his? Either way, they were right.

He poured a generous measure and raised the glass.

“To you, Mum.” He swigged the lot in one gulp. He hadn’t meant to do that.

His neck was tickled again and this time it was familiar. Her fingers stroking his nape. Brushing the lower edge of his hair.

“To me.”

Gary poured another and drank it straight down.

“To us.”

He heard the double slam as the front and back doors closed.

“Must be the wind.” He slurred, drunker faster than he remembered.

“Just the wind.” The fingers brushed through his hair.

“One for the road.” He laughed, swigging from the bottle.

Her arms wrapped around him “No road this time. Stay with me, baby boy.”

Vanessa was chewing her nails. It was the first time in years she had reverted to the habit. It took a surprising amount of focused will to pull her hand away and stop doing it.

It had been easy to find Gary’s car, parked outside of number 18. That should have made her mind ease off on the worry, but it hadn’t.

The black sacks were still on the back seat, as were the two cardboard boxes he brought in case there was anything worth salvaging from the house in terms of memories.

Her own car was parked a few streets away as there had been no other spaces in Breaker Street. It was starting to get dark and Gary wasn’t answering his phone.

He must have gone into Lisa’s house but what could he be doing in there without the supplies he had brought to empty it out? More importantly, why wasn’t he answering his phone? It wasn’t a dead battery, that would have sent her straight to voicemail. Instead it was ringing and ringing until it went to voicemail. Had he lost it? It couldn’t have been stolen, any smart thief would have had the SIM card out or turned it off as fast as they could.

He had left before lunch, determined to see how his mother had been living before she died. The police had given him the keys.

Vanessa hadn’t wanted him to go, for her that house was nothing but a reminder of the black hole of selfishness that Lisa had embodied and how the gravitational pull of her selfish, self destructive ways had kept Gary trapped.

The difference between the sweet man she knew on their dates and the drunken arsehole he became there was night and day.

The house had always smelled off, whenever she went there, but Gary insisted it wasn’t like that all the time. Vanessa had come to conclude that Lisa was doing something or not doing something there to drive her off. It had nearly worked too. She had dumped him, told him that while she could stand him when he drank while they were out with friends, she couldn’t bear the man he was when he and Lisa drank together.

Vanessa had meant every word of it, she was done with him. Six months was enough time to know that she cared for the man he was when he wasn’t there, but he always went back.

It had been a week later that he had turned up at her front door, one backpack and one duffel bag full of clothes and a few of his journals. He had sobbed in her arms, told her that his eyes had been opened. He never did say what the final straw had been, Vanessa hadn’t even known he was close to a last straw.

She had taken him inside, let him sober up in the kitchen of her flat while her roommate gave Gary side-eye and warned her to be careful.

After a week she had let him move into her room and they rebuilt what they had on stronger foundations.

Now, twenty years later, he was back in that house for the first time and he wasn’t answering his phone.

Her rational mind, the one that protected her said his grief may have knocked him cold, that letting him go alone had been a bad idea.

Her emotional mind said that something was very wrong.

For a change, she trusted her emotional mind.

Walking back to number 6, she found herself biting her nails again. She slapped her leg with that hand, forcing it to do something different.

Reaching the crumbling wall, she couldn’t help but tut at the state of the garden. It hadn’t got that bad in the week since Lisa had died. The state it was in took months. She really must have stopped caring before the end, she’d been a vain woman and that had extended to the house. Couldn’t let the neighbours think she was any less than they were.

Vanessa had to give it to Lisa, she had always presented herself well whenever she was out of the house. Tasteful, minimalist make-up, the kind that blokes thought meant she wasn’t wearing any. Stylish clothes, friendly to everyone.

Except for her, and as Gary told it, any other girls he ever showed any interest in.

Vanessa knew people changed with age, but she had trouble believing Lisa had changed that much. She always had an angle to play, something to pull on people’s sympathies or expectations.

Perhaps all the booze had really got to her in the end, perhaps it was something else.

As Vanessa approached the house she could hear something buzzing inside. All of the lights were off, but there was the sound of something moving.

And, was that singing?

She knocked on the door, the doorbell was missing.

She knocked again, calling out for Gary this time.

Still no response.

Vanessa rang Gary’ phone and pushed open the letterbox so she could hear if it rang in the house.

A swarm of flies exploded through the letterbox and smacked her in the face. She recoiled, flailing at the ever moving blanket that tried to wrap itself around her. Some got in her mouth and others crawled up her nose.

Vanessa fell back from the door, coughing and choking, trying to get them out of her.

The letterbox snapped shut and the flies dispersed into the evening sky.

The buzzing had almost entirely drowned out the world as she was swarmed, but for a second she was sure she had heard Freddie Mercury singing “I want to ride my bicycle.”

Bicycle Race, Gary’s ring tone for her. An old joke that neither of hem fully remembered the cause of.

Picking herself up off of the floor, Vanessa banged on the door, yelling loudly this time.

“Gary, I heard your phone. I know you are in there. Come on, honey. Let me in. Don’t go through this alone.”

She pounded and yelled, not caring what anyone else thought. If they tried to shut her up, she’d make them help her break down the door.

Gary couldn’t have properly closed the door because after a minute of pounding it suddenly clicked open. 

Rational brain Must have not quite caught on the latch.

Emotional brain Funny how it only opened when we started being loud enough to embarrass her.

Vanessa wasn’t sure how to process her emotional brain’s thought, but filed it away for later study.

The door opening let out a punch of stench that sent her reeling. Vanessa recognised the smell of rotten food, but there was more mixed into it she couldn’t place.

She pulled a scarf from her coat pocket and wrapped it over her nose and mouth to filter the stench. It helped a little, but breathing the air in the house was still making her nauseous.

Her immediate thought was that Gary had been overcome by the smell and whatever noxious gasses might have built up inside the house due to the waste she could see. Before stepping inside, she rang his phone again.

The opening of Bicycle Race played from upstairs.

The buzzing was louder now the door was open and Vanessa had a horrible feeling that it was more flies. How could the woman she had known let her house get into this state?

She found the light switch and turned the lounge light on and was immediately disgusted by the sight before her. She realised that Lisa’s pride and joy, the only thing she valued more than Gary was gone. The missing three piece suite was more of a shock than the piles of bottles and discarded rubbish covering the floor.

Vanessa couldn’t find pity in her heart for the woman though, they had given her chances and offered her more help than she deserved. Every single one of them had been scorned because they wouldn’t give in to her demands that if they were going to be a couple they should move in with her.

With the lounge light on she could see the switch for the stairs and landing light. She picked her way over carefully and turned it on.

The sight of more rubbish on the stairs didn’t surprise her now. Not that she had time to wonder at the state of the house, Gary could be unconscious upstairs. Her husband needed her help.

Running up the stairs she called out for him.

There was no reply, just the increased buzzing sound.

On the landing she saw the wedged open spare room and the glint of bottles through the crack, she discounted it immediately.

Ringing his phone again she heard Bicycle Race come from Gary’s old room.

Calling his name, she opened the door.

The buzzing sound was everywhere, but the window was blacked out, she could see nothing.

Through the buzzing, she heard noises, human sounds. A moan and a gasp.

Vanessa turned the light on and instantly recoiled at the sight before her. Her brain took a snapshot to analyse as she turned away from the room, eyes filled with tears of horror and sorrow.

It wasn’t curtains blocking the window, it was a wall of flies.

Gary lay on his old bed, looking sick. A nearly empty bottle of vodka in his right hand which dangled off the bed.

His being so drunk would have been enough to break her heart, but what terrified her was the thing beside him.

It was the shape of a person, made from a million flies. As Gary lay, drunk, moaning and belching, this thing was softly stroking his hair, tenderly, with fingers made of flies.

Her memory showed her another image then, an old one. Gary, drunk on his bed, Lisa laying beside him, cooing at his state and smiling in victory at Vanessa.

“No.” Vanessa told herself, “That can’t be.”

She looked again, this time seeing features in the swarming face. Seeing the sly smile. Hearing the buzzing coo.

It was. The fly thing was Lisa.

“Gary, wake up.” Vanessa called from the doorway, unwilling to get close to Fly-Lisa.

“Wassat?” Grumbled Gary, blearily looking in her direction. “Oh, hey Miss Moderation.”

That hurt, a deep wound reopened. That was the name Lisa had coined for her because she refused to get as drunk as they would. The name Gary never used unless he was drunk with his mother. The one he swore to never say again.

“Get up, Gary. Come to me.”

“Nah, s‘comfy ‘ere. ‘Ave a drinking-poo wiv us.” He waved the bottle at her.

Fly-Lisa smiled and then, horrors, it spoke. Her voice modulated by the buzzing of flies, Vanessa wanted to be sick. 

“She won’t join us. She’s no fun.” Fly-Lisa smiled, it was predatory.

“Yeah, you’s nafun. ‘Ave drink.” Gary gave her his drunk seduction smile, the one that made him look happily constipated. She hated that smile.

“Gary, don’t let her do this to you. Not again.” Vanessa couldn’t process this situation any other way than to fall into an old pattern. She knew what came next, wanted to leave this behind and not face it. But that meant leaving Gary to this, thing. She couldn’t do that, wouldn’t let Lisa destroy it all now that they were finally, truly free.

“Oh piss off. You hate me ‘avin’ fun. Borin’ bitch. Fugovaddavit.” Gary screamed.

How many times had she left at this point? How many nights had she let this happen?

“Yes, Miss Prim and Sober. Go find a boring man. You don’t deserve my Gary.” Fly-Lisa buzz-sneered, its hand stroking Gary’s chin, tenderly.

Rational brain – Don’t attack. That’s the hard part. Don’t let her bait you into fighting, that’s when she wins. 

Emotional brain – Remember, her anger. Remember he loves you.

“I’ll stay. I’ll help out while you two have fun.” She had to be the reasonable one. But she could prod the bitch a little. “Maybe I can tidy up a bit.”

“Yeah, love. That be nice.” Gary smiled at her, a genuine one this time.

“Tidy? Tidy what?” Ah, there was that tinge of anger she wanted from the bitch.

“Oh, just a couple of bits out of place. Couple of cups I could wash up.” Vanessa forced the sweet sincerity she barely remembered from the last time into her voice.

“See, Mum, she jus’ wantsta ‘elp’”

“She’s calling me messy! How dare you? How fucking dare you?” Fly-Lisa yelled, speaking her lines flawlessly. Vanessa tried to keep the smile off of her face. The spirit of Gary’s mother didn’t remember how this went last time.

“I’m sorry. I was just trying to give you two more time to have fun.”

“Yeah, we’s ‘avin’ fun. Intwe?” Gary ‘s voice was happy, but his face was confused, was he remembering? She could only hope.

“I know what you want, you bitch. You want to take my Gary away from me.”

“I just want Gary to be happy.”

“You want me to be miserable.” The fly thing screamed, losing the coherence of its form for a second. Vanessa saw Gary’s face drop as the reality of what as stroking his face was made real to him.

“I don’t want you miserable at all.” Now she was going to do it, Vanessa pre-flinched.

She didn’t know where the bottle came from, it wasn’t the one Gary still held.

Fly-Lisa threw the empty vodka bottle at her and Vanessa forced herself not to duck, to let it hit her again.

It smashed into her forehead again, opening a wound along the old, faded scar.

Vanessa allowed herself a shriek and fell back, clutching her face, hoping that this time it would heal faster.

“You bitch.” Screamed Fly-Lisa, finally remembering what had happened, but inadvertently making her own cause worse.

“Mum!” Yelled Gary, finding a moment of sobriety and diving off the bed to catch her, leaving the bottle of vodka to drop and spill.

Once the first drops of vodka hit the floor, the bottle vanished.

“You’re stealing him again!” Fly-Lisa scream-buzzed, her voice losing its human quality.

“She’s not stealing anything.” Gary yelled back, his voice noticeably clearer.

The fly-thing sobbed, tears of flies running down its shifting cheeks “She stole you from me before. Took you away. Stopped you coming home. Its all her fault.”

Gary pulled the scarf away from Vanessa’s face, twisted it into a bandage and wrapped her head. Then he gave her a small smile and mouthed “Thank you.”

He tuned back to the thing that had been his mother “She didn’t stop me. I stopped me. You stopped me.”

The fly thing screamed and exploded into a shapeless form.

Vanessa stayed quiet as the swarm reformed into his mother. Gary was thankful for that, she knew this had to end by his words. She was his strength and he could never thank her enough for that. But the last of his mother had to be dealt with by his own words. She had to finally understand that all these years had been down to what strength of his own he had managed to find.

The swarm flew in intricate patterns, buzzing and screaming.

“Stop that. Your tantrums don’t work any more.”

The swarm settled back into the shape of his mother.

“She took you away from me.” it sobbed.

“She didn’t take me. I’m not property. I left you. I chose that.” It was hard to keep his voice firm, to fight back against the guilt.

“She made you do it. Made you ignore me.”

“No, Mum. That was my choice because you wouldn’t even be civil to her.”

“Why should I be civil to the bitch that stole you away?” The buzzing wails increased.

“Stole me away? Listen to yourself. I was your son, not your husband.” Anger now, rage that she still couldn’t understand that she was wrong. “I’m supposed to go out and find someone for me if I want. I’m sorry Dad left you before I was born. I’m sorry he made you go through that. But I was not meant to be his replacement.”

“You weren’t!”

“Yes, I was. You made me a replacement husband and drinking buddy. You were either my friend or my wife. You were never a mother.”

“I fed you! Housed you! Bathed you!” The thing squealed.

Now the rage was righteous and white hot “That’s what you are supposed to do! That’s what being a parent is, at its most basic level. Feed the kids, water them, keep them relatively clean and give them somewhere to sleep. Keeping your kids alive is the most basic function of being a parent and you barely managed that.”

“I was a good mother.” It wailed.

“You weren’t. You were a drunk. I had to make my own dinners, lunches and snacks from when I was five. Then one day you’d be sober enough to cook and demand a fucking standing ovation like that wasn’t your responsibility anyway.”

“I…was a good mother.” The buzzing dulled, dimmed, started to fade.

“You were demanding, controlling. You were lonely and wanted me all to yourself forever and always. I thought I felt sorry for you, but really, I was sorry for me. For all the things I missed out on because I had to be with you.” Gary let his voice fall to a calm volume. She wasn’t worth the energy of shouting.

“You left me to become this.” The thing gestured at itself, at the house, the mess.

“No. I left you. You became this. What you did was of your own doing.” Vanessa touched his hand, held it, gripped it. She fed him strength.

“Your fault.” It whispered.

“Yours. Always yours.”

“I was sick.”

“We offered you help. You said no.”

“The wrong help.”

“No, Mum.”

The fly-thing that looked like his Mum vibrated, the buzzing fading in and out. It was her, then it was shapeless, then her again. Its focus was fading.

“We gave you every chance. Vanessa took more abuse from you than I would have let anyone else get close to giving her. But she let you scream and shout, lie and berate for years.”

The flies coalesced and pointed at Vanessa, screeching “Her fault. Her fault. Her fault!”

The rage came back “Not her fault! Your fault! You threw the bottle back then.” He pointed at his beautiful, strong, amazing wife “You crossed the line then. And look now, you had me, I was under whatever spell you wove and you had me. All you had to do was not attack my wife! If you had done that, you’d have won. But you couldn’t and now its done.” Gary sighed, feeling completely drained “You’ve done this to yourself, Mum. You’ve done it all to yourself.”

The thing buzzed, swarmed, folded in on itself, then let out a wail and all the sound stopped. For an instant the swarm hung in the air before all of the flies dropped dead to the ground. Their bodies raining a drumbeat on the hard surfaces.

Gary offered his hand to Vanessa and helped her to her feet. They embraced and he buried his head in her shoulder. Before he could stop it, the sobs came. Deep wracking ones which drew all the energy from his legs. The pair of them fell to their knees, finding comfort and strength in each other. 

Outside, Gary locked the front door and put the keys in his pocket.

“You were right.” He told Vanessa.

“I usually am.” She replied with a smile, entwining her fingers through his “What was I right about in particular?”

“One roll of black sacks was not enough.” He said, laughing.

Vanessa squeezed him tight and they left the house behind.

© Robert Spalding 2020

Story 24 – Daniel’s Story

To whoever finds this,

Please read my story. Its very important that someone knows what happened.

My name is Daniel and I’m 12 years old. I was born in Chichester and I have lived my whole life in Arundel. That’s in West Sussex in England.

My life has been ok, Arundel isn’t the most exciting town to grow up in, but I had friends and we could always find things to do.

I’m writing this so that you know what happened on the day my friends Jack and Bill couldn’t come on a bike ride with me.

Arundel is a very quiet town, the river Arun flows beside it and there’s a really nice cathedral. But it doesn’t have much for kids to do. There’s no cinema, no amusement arcades. So for fun, as soon as our parents thought we were responsible enough, me and my friends old ride our bikes up the South Downs and into the woods.

This happened on a Sunday. Jack, Bill and I were supposed to ride our favourite trail, leaving before lunch. We would get home in the late afternoon, just in time for the second match of Super Sunday, which we were supposed to watch at Jack’s house that day.

I arrived at Jack’s house ready to go. I knocked on the door and his Mum answered, she looked surprised to see my bike.

I asked if Jack was ready to go and she said Jack wasn’t going anywhere.

I asked if he had been grounded for something an she laughed at me, which hurt my feelings. She told me that Jack’s dad had bought him a PS3 the day before and he and Bill were playing it.

I was confused because Jack hadn’t said anything to me about it, neither had Bill.

Jack’s Mum invited me in, but I didn’t want to spend all at inside, it was too nice a day for riding. Sunny but not stupid hot. If it had been aiming or cold, I think I would have gone in to play with them and none of this would have happened.

Riding to the start of the trail, I took it slowly, enjoying the ride. Normally all three of us are egging each other on, racing and going fast. That day, I could take my time and have a look at the countryside as I rode down the roads. I lived in an area surrounded by hills and woods and nature. There were a few fields that had sheep in. How odd is it that one sheep is a sheep but more than one is still sheep. Not sheep’s or something else, like five shoop.

The trail I was going to ride started on op of the Downs, which meant I had to ride up a slope that got steadily steeper as it got higher.

This was where I missed riding with my mates. With us yelling at each other, calling names and making the slowest out to be a wimp or a girl, we sort of fight not to be in last place. It makes the climb easier when you have a competition to see who can do it fastest.

Riding it by myself, it was hard. I ended up concentrating only on pedalling, trying to keep my speed up. Getting near the top, I had shifted all the way down into first gear. On flat ground I’d have been spinning my legs around like Road Runner, but up that high, every push was a right effort.

I have to say that I did need to get off my bike before I reached the top and push it the last five minutes, I just couldn’t go fast enough to keep my balance. It wasn’t the first Tim that I or one of the others had had to do that but it had been a long time. Its surprising what you can do when you don’t want to be made fun of by your mates.

Once I crested the hill, I stopped for a drink from my water bottle and had a look at the view. It was something we always did, but usually we didn’t really look at the view, we were just trying to stop each other rom seeing how red faced and out of breath we were.

This time I had a proper look, the massive hills swooping and curving. The different shades of green making a patchwork below. The dark green of the hedges dividing the fields. I’ve been trying to think of a better word than pretty, because I know Jack and Bill would make fun of m for it, but it really was a pretty sight.

When I got my breath back I rode along the road, heading for the downhill trail that I wanted. There’s a few up there, some are much steeper than others and I was going for a fairly steep one, but not one that gets a bit sketchy. The best one makes you go so fast, but there’s a few turns that can be tricky and I thought that trying it by myself would be a bad idea. If I stacked it a bit hard I would be in trouble because it could be hours before anyone found me.

That’s when I saw a new trail on the opposite side.

Let me explain, all of the trails I was looking at and planned to ride, they all head back in the general direction of Arundel. They all go down the same slope. This nw one was on the other side of the hill, so going down it would take me away from home. That meant it would take me longer to get home and I might miss some or all of the match. It was only Man City against Pompey, so not likely to be a great game.

Plus, and this is important, it was a new trail that none of us had ridden before. That meant I could do it and tell Jack and Bill all about it. They might have the PS3 to play on, but I would have discovered something. That was just better.

The start of the trail was through some trees, so I took it steady, I was obviously going to tell Jack and Bill I bombed the whole way, but I was smart enough to not go too fast down an unknown track by myself.

The trail started by going along the length of the Down, so it wasn’t too steep to start with. That meant I still needed to pedal every so often just to keep my seed up, then it took a tight left turn and went directly down for a shot. I picked up enough speed that I kept touching my rear brake to keep my speed down.

It started having more turns, getting a bit technical but I held myself on them. I knew if I remembered most of them, I could really outrace my mates when I brought them up here.

There was a fork in the trail, one led straight down, so I could get loads of speed and really fly, ending up in the field at the bottom and that looked like fun, but the other path curved back into the trees.

If I’d been with the boys, I’m sure we’d have taken the route down, seeing who could go the fastest, feeling that sense of flying when you are freewheeling because you can’t pedal fast enough to make a difference, even in t gear. But I was alone and had a bit of an urge to explore some more. I could always turn around and do the downhill run if I didn’t like what I found.

All of that was decided in the few seconds before I reached the fork. I’d already been out of the woods for a minute or so, riding down the grass slope, so I had a really good view of everything. I wasn’t thinking about the football or lunch or really thinking about Jack and Bill, I was just enjoying the ride and didn’t want it to end just yet.

I swooped away from the downhill and then I was among the trees, enjoying the sudden, cool shade they threw over me.

The trail curved back up the slope, so I had the change gears and start pedalling again.

I was getting deep and starting to think about whether the end of this trail was too far and if I should go back when I saw the car sitting in among the trees.

I had to brake, stop and look.

When I say car, I don’t mean a Ford Mondeo like your Dad has, or a really fancy car like a Lambo or Ferrari. This was an old car. An old, old car. Like one of the first cars ever, old. No roof, boxy looking. Didn’t even have a windscreen.

I could see it through the trees, it was in a bit of a clearing, so I got off my bike and my legs felt a little wobbly under me, I had been pumping harder than I thought.

I wheeled my bike through the trees and came into the clearing.

The car wasn’t rusty or dirty. It looked new. Well, a new old car. Like someone had built it in the clearing. There wasn’t any mud on the tires. It actually sparkled in the bits of sun that came through the trees.

I rested my bike against a tree. I walked to the car, reaching out a hand to touch it, to make sure it was real. It was too perfect to be there, do you see? How could I be sure that it was real? There was no road through the trees that this car could have fit, even if it had been driven here when it was new, time and weather should have messed it up a bit even if trees had grown over the road it used.

It was too perfect to be real.

I touched it. It was absolutely real.

I ordered what sort of effort someone would have to put in to get a car like this all the way here, halfway up a Down and to keep it looking so good.

That’s when the man appeared on the other side of the car and said “Do you like my car?”

If you asked him, he might say I screamed when he spoke, but I didn’t. I did yell, maybe a swear, but I did not scream.

“There’s no need to scream, young man.” He said.

That’s when I actually looked at him for the first time. He looked old, like forty or fifty years old. He was wearing a dark blue tuxedo. His hair was white, tangled and long, went down past his shoulders. He looked weird, I didn’t like him.

“I didn’t scream. I yelled.” I told him.

He laughed at me and I decided that the car wasn’t interesting enough to be laughed at. I started to walk away.

“Wait, young man, don’t you want to know how I got this car here and why it looks so well maintained?” He called after me.

I did want to know, I really wanted to know, because how did he even get it up here. But he had really annoyed me and I didn’t want to talk to him.

“I apologise if I upset you. I haven’t talked to anyone in quite some time. My manners are not what they should be.” He smiled and his teeth were all yellow and broken.

“Apology accepted.” I said, doing what Mum and dad had told me was polite. I still didn’t want to talk to him though.

“The story of how I ended up with this car here is quite interesting, y know. I think you’d like it.” He said.

“No thanks. I need to get home for the footy.” I told him. I planned on going back to the fork and taking the fast downhill run.

“That’s a shame.” He sighed and stroked the car. “I just thought you’d have liked to know why my meeting the ghost of a pirate ended up with this car so beautifully preserved here, amongst these trees.”

I stopped. A ghost pirate? I did like a good ghost story and the Pirates of the Caribbean films were high on my rewatch list. His story couldn’t be as cool as Captain Jack, Will Turner and Elizabeth Swan’s was, but he did promise me ghosts and pirates.

I thought I could listen to him for a bit, if he was interesting I’d stay. If he wasn’t then I’d leave him and his car there.

He said I should sit in the car, because it would be more comfortable. My legs were aching a bit and I thought the red seats did look comfy, so I sat behind the steering wheel. The first time I had ever been allowed to sit in the driver’s seat of any car. I really was very nice, very comfy too.

He sat in the passenger seat, so I kept the driver’s door open in case I needed to get away. I’m twelve, but I’m not stupid.

He started to tell me his story and I’ll try to put it down here properly, but you know what its like when you retell someone else’s story. You can’t remember their exact words except for a ew things, you won’t even remember all the details. Like, if after reading this, you try to tell someone my story, you’ll remember bits of it, the idea of it, but you won’t tell everything I’ve told you and that’s ok. That’s what happens when you tell stories.

So, the man said he was out fishing one day, he didn’t say where, just out at sea. Then he saw something on the sea. It was a man, standing up in the middle of it. He wasn’t standing on the water, he was in it, his boots under the waves. When the man got closer, he could see this was someone dressed as a pirate, eyepatch, hook, hat, the whole thing.

The pirate rose out of the sea and the man saw that he was riding on the back of a whale. The pirate asked to be taken back into shore because the whale couldn’t get close enough.

The man asked the pirate how he had come to be on the back of a whale in the sea and the pirate told the man the story. It was something to do with witches and a curse from the Far East. He didn’t provide many details and I didn’t really take them in. I wanted to know how he got from a pirate on a whale to a car in the woods on a hill.

The man said the important part of the story was what the pirate told him, that the whale wasn’t real, it was just a fascinator, something to grab a person’s attention. A ghost like the pirate needed to get someone’s attention so that they could tell them a story. It didn’t matter if the story was true, though based on the truth was better than a complete lie. Because when you tell someone a story, you get inside their head. You hold them in place if you make it short enough. Its like hypnotism.

I wanted to know why hypnotising someone with a story was so important.

The man said it was because of the curse, the pirate wasn’t the first person cursed, he was just the latest. There was a long chain of these cursed people. They were doomed to walk the earth until they could find someone, get into their head and make them still. Then they could kill them, freeing themselves to pass over and their victim would be the next in line.

“How does that explain why this car is in the woods?” I demanded to know.

He laughed and said “Its a fascinator.”

Then he reached into my mouth with his cold fingers and ripped my tongue out.

He said that I would take his place now. He showed me the wound in his belly where the pirate had sliced him open with his hook. The wound that had never healed. 

He said that I was the cursed one now. He was free to pass over, but I was cursed to stay.

He apologised for ripping out my tongue. He said he had been thinking about this for a long time and the only way to make the curse end was to stop the cursed person being able to tell someone their story. He said he was sorry, but someone had t be the last and he couldn’t face it being him.

His cold, dry hands wrapped around my throat and he choked me to death.

So, I’ve written this down and placed it somewhere to be found. Because I want people to know what happened to me.

So, thank you for reading my story.

And if you made it this far, there’s just one more thing.

I’m standing right beside you.

© Robert Spalding 2020

Story 23 – The Department of Post-Life Affairs

Nick felt as though he had been stood in the queue forever. He couldn’t remember why he was in the queue or how he had even joined it. He did have a strong urge to remain in it though, like there was something important at the end of it.

He was surrounded by people of all ages, shapes and colours. The queue had to be somewhere, but he didn’t know where. Above was white, plain and dull, there must be walls, because it felt like a room, but he couldn’t see any just the crowd that queued stretching off as far as he could make out.

He tried to talk to the man in front of him, but got no response. He did wonder why someone would be standing in a queue wearing a hospital gown.

The woman behind him didn’t acknowledge him either, she was too preoccupied with probing the hole in her belly with her fingers.

Almost everyone around Nick seemed to have something wrong with them. The man with a hole in his forehead, the woman with a face that was nothing but bruises, people with signs of violence on their person surrounded him.

The fact that the queue snaked on and around and had no obvious end wasn’t worrying. Nothing was worrying. everything was right, even the things that couldn’t be.

The boredom was one factor, but that very slowly turned into being bored with boredom. Which was a new experience, so he tried to enjoy it before that was boring too.

“Katie Dove.” A neutral voice said and the woman with the hole in her stomach vanished through the floor.

Nick wondered if she was done with her probing. Then he forgot there had been a woman with a hole in her stomach, the person behind him was a teenage boy in a skate helmet with an iron railing trough his chest and always had been.

“Nick Walker.” Said the neutral voice and Nick fell through the floor.

Out of the blank room, away from the queue, Nick’s emotions were returned to him.

The first one was absolute terror as he fell in absolute darkness.

The second emotion was confusion when his fall stopped with him sitting in an uncomfortable chair in front of a middle aged white woman, who was wearing a blue cardigan over a simple suit. On the cardigan was a name tag that read “My name is Carol.”

“Hello, Nick,” she said cheerfully, “you’re dead.”

That should have been more upsetting, but all things considered, it felt perfectly reasonable. The only question was how to respond.

“Thank you.” He said.

Carol lifted one eyebrow and gave him a small smile. She looked down at the folder in her hands, that had always been in her hands even if Nick didn’t remember it being there before.

“I see you were unsure about an afterlife.”

Nick scratched his head “Yeah, I mean, I thought maybe there was one, but its not like there was any real evidence.”

Carol chuckled gently “Don’t worry, Nick, plenty of people felt the same way. You saw them while you were waiting. You need to be very, very sure about the existence of one to go straight there.”

“So, if I’d been convinced there was a paradise once I died, I could have just gone straight there?”

“No, dear, it meant that you would have gone straight to judgement. Plenty of very certain people have found out that a conviction there is a paradise is no guarantee of admission. Each one has its own entry criteria. Without having a conviction in your heart, I couldn’t possibly say what one you’d would be applying for.”

That took Nick by surprise “There’s more than one?”

“Oh, most certainly. Firstly, you’ve got the generalised ones from major religions, I am given to understand that they even do away days to each other’s. Like a coach trip, just for a change of pace. Then you have famous but lesser ones, such as Valhalla, although we’ve seen a resurgence in clients heading that way recently. I blame those movies, if I’m honest. Then there are the smaller ones, more personal ones, some people get their own personal paradise, no other people there.”

Nick glanced downwards, he couldn’t help it “What about…” he trailed off, unable to finish the thought.

“Yes, there are plenty of the other place too, more than there are of paradises. People can be so creative when it comes to inflicting suffering on themselves.” Carol shook her head.

Nick felt like he should be sweating, should be nervous “So, is this my entry exam then? Is it just pass fail or is there a points system?”

Now Carol laughed, freely and full of good humour “Goodness, no. Do I look like the arbitrator of your eternal fate? Does this look like where souls are judged?”

Granted, this nice lady did not seem to be an arbitrator of fate, she seemed much more like an everyday functionary. She reminded him of the people who worked in the Council offices.

Looking around properly for the first time, Nick realised he was sat in a cubicle surrounded by three grey walls. Through the open side, he could see another grey wall across a corridor. He leaned out of the cubicle and saw the other wall extended for an eternity.

“Please come back into the cubicle.” Carol said, “It would be impolite for you to see or hear who are in the ones either side of us.”

Nick apologised and moved back to where he had landed. Now Carol had said about there being other people, he could hear the low, indistinct murmur of voices, a multitude of them, each just too quiet to make out any discernible words.

“I’m sorry, but if this isn’t Up There, Down There or the entry exam, where am I, please?”

Carol gasped “Oh my. I haven’t done this properly at all. Allow me to start again.”

She cleared her throat, straightened up in her chair and tapped the folder on the desk to straighten it up. Then she gave him the smile he recognised from so many meetings, the polite, but indifferent professional one most public facing office staff developed.

“Hello, Nick. You’re dead. My name is Carol and I’m your advisor from the Department for Post-Life Affairs. Please make yourself comfortable.”

Nick managed a half smile in return and vaguely shifted in his chair, which felt like all public office chairs, that is, just too hard to ever be truly comfortable.

Carol looked at him, smile still on her face, waiting for him to do something.

Nick blanked, then fell back into the practise rhythm of a meeting like this “Nice to meet you. Thank you for seeing me.”

Carol nodded and laid the folder down on the desk and opened it “I see you were undecided about an afterlife?”

“Didn’t we just do this bit?” Nick asked.

“Sorry, force of habit.”

Nick looked at Carol, Carol looked at NIck. It was that awkward silence where both expected the other to speak first. It stretched on for an uncomfortable amount of time.

Finally, Nick broke “What is the Department for Post Life Affairs, and what is it you are going to advise me on?”

Carol blinked, readjusted her glasses and then laughed “I’m not on top of my game today, am I?”

“I really couldn’t say.” Nick replied, a lifetime of drilled in politeness speaking before he could think.

“Very kind of you to say so.” She clapped her hands together, making him jump “Right then, you are now in the preliminary interview for your Post-Life assignment. Due to a lack of conviction on your part, vis a vis, an eternal life, you were assigned to the Queue, sometimes known as Limbo. During your time there, you were monitored to see if a deeper conviction might awaken. Unfortunately, in your case, this was not to be. Instead, your most strongly held opinion whilst in the Queue was that boredom was boring.” Carol looked up at him and smiled “That’s a new one to me.”

“I guess I’m not as deep a thinker as I considered myself.” Nick said, shrugging.

“Don’t sell yourself short, Nick, its still quite an unusual opinion for the Queue.” Carol closed the folder. “Now, as the Queue did not provide you with a solution, we move on to the next step. You can go back to the Queue, remembering nothing of this, or you can try pro-active Post-Life evaluation.”

“Does it say if I’ve been back to the Queue before in there?” Nick pointed at the folder.

“It does say if you have, yes.”

“And have I?”

Carol gave him a sympathetic look “I’m afraid that information is for internal use only.”

“What does that mean?”

“It means only those employed by the DPLA and overseeing your case can know it.”

“So you know.”

“I do.”

“But you can’t tell me.”

“I’m afraid not.”

“Even though we are talking about what I might have done.”

Carol nodded.

Nick sighed, this was all too familiar. “Tell me about this pro-active option then.”

Smiling, Carol adjusted her glasses and straightened up in her chair “The pro-active Post-Life evaluation is our flagship program for those souls who have yet to come to a firm conclusion on the specific nature of their soul and its ultimate disposition regarding eternity. There are a number of options on what form your evaluation can take. We attach no judgement to any choices on your part, I am here to advise you as to what might be your most optimal path.”

Nick nodded, understanding absolutely none of that.

“Would you like to undertake the pro-active Post-Life evaluation? I am afraid once the process begins, returning to the Queue by choice will no longer be an option.”

Thinking about the Queue, the eternal, unmitigated nothing that it entailed, Nick wasn’t sorry to let that option fade away.

“Let’s forget about the Queue forever. I’ll go with option b.”

Carol clapped her hands with glee “Marvellous, simply marvellous. You’re my first advisee to go through with it.”

Before Nick could respond to that, the pair of them dropped through the floor.

They dropped into an almost identical cubicle, the only thing missing was his chair.

Carol sat down in her chair behind the desk and picked up a clipboard and a pen.

“Hello, Nick. Welcome to your introduction to pro-active Post-Life evaluation. Now, first we must discover what kind of Post-Life being you are.”

She placed the pen on the desk, next to a contract “Please sign this.”

Nick reached down for the pen and his fingers passed through it. He tried again and again, but could find no purchase on it. “What’s this?” He demanded.

“No material contact. You appear to be a what we call a floater.”

“Floater? I can’t touch anything? I don’t like that.” Nick told her, feeling the demand that this be changed in his voice.

“You don’t want to be a floater? You want to be a toucher?” Carol asked.

“Yes, I think I very much would like that.” Nick told her, although he didn’t like the idea of being called a toucher. Not that floater was a huge improvement.

“No problem,” she said brightly. She reached into a drawer and pulled out a different contract and laid it on the desk “just sign this contract.”

“Thank you.” Nick reached for the pen and his fingers passed through it.

Carol smiled, sadly.

“Very funny.” Nick said.

“I’m sorry, Nick, but the distinction is in your soul. Either touchy or floaty. Don’t be too upset, this is merely the first option.”

Nick now started to actually process what was happening. He’d been caught up in the mundanity so much that it wasn’t until this moment of frustration that his mind actually took notice of what was happening.

“Wait, what is pro-active Post-Life evaluation in plain language?” He was sure he knew the answer, but he wanted her to actually say it.

“Well, you will be a non-corporeal entity. A protoplasmic being.”

“I’ll be a ghost.”

“Well, if you want to put it in the most vulgar of terms, yes.” Carol sniffed.

“Let me see if I can reason my way through this.” Nick crossed his arms and closed his eyes “So, I will become a ghost, the specific type of which we are currently determining. That means I will return to Earth, the world of the living. There, I will do ghostly things to the best of my ability until I have a concrete understanding of the eternal plain of existence. Presumably you or someone like you will be overseeing my progress?”

“It will be me, I am your advisor.”

“Right, so I hang around down there, or up there, whatever direction the world is from here; until I have my fixed idea. At which point I will be given an appointment time for my judgement.” He opened his yes and looked at his advisor, she was smiling very proudly at him. Nick felt a warm flush of pride in himself.

“Spot on, Nick, spot on.”

“One question, do the actions I take as a ghost count towards my judgement or am I judged only on what I did while alive?”

“Your actions as a ghost can count towards your judgement, depending on your choice of afterlife. However, it will only make up 5% of your grade if it is counted at all.”

“Sounds fair. What’s next?”

Carol rubbed her hands “Now we start getting into the nitty gritty. Let’s find out what kind of protoplasmic entity you are going to be.” She picked up the pen and tapped it against her clipboard.

“Thinking about your death, do you blame a specific person or persons, or a specific place, for your demise?”

Nick hadn’t even thought about how he had died. Wasn’t sure he even knew.

He started to tell Carol about his lapse in memory when he relived it all at high speed, in reverse.

The train hitting.

Rolling down the embankment.

Kicked in the face.

Thrown to the floor.

Punches to the head.

A kick to the balls.

Voices from behind.

Walking beside the tracks to get home.

Leaving the warmth of the pub.

Insisting he hadn’t looked at anyone.

Drinking his beer by himself.

Stopping into the nearest pub to wet the bay’s head

Getting the call on the way home from work to say he’d become an Uncle.

Nick felt something hot in his belly, rolling up into his arms “Yes, I do blame specific people.”

The heat was burning his fingers and he jerked then, trying to cool them by waving them.

The clipboard was blown out of Carol’s hands and the contracts flew around the cubicle.

Carol retrieved her clipboard and pen “I do believe that you are an angry spirit, Nick.”

Nick heard her, but didn’t reply for the moment, he’d never even got to see a picture, they hadn’t even finalised a name yet.

“Angry? I’m furious.” The heat filled him and Nick pushed it out of him, expelling the pain.

The desk caught on fire.

Carol tsked and pulled a fire extinguisher from somewhere. Once the flames were out she looked at Nick, disappointed. “Please control yourself, Mr Walker. I will tolerate no more outbursts in the office. If you continue to be disruptive, I’m afraid I will have to call Security to remove you until such time as you have calmed down and I have an opening in my diary.” She made sure he was looking in her eyes “And my diary is full for the foreseeable eternity.”

The heat was building again, but Nick forced himself to suck it back in, back down. “I apologise.”

He was, however, extremely curious as to what kind of security this place had that was able to cope with wayward ghosts.

On second thoughts, he could go the rest of his Post-Life without ever finding out, quite happily.

“Well then, it appears you have a ability to influence objects after all. Rare, and it does open other options for you.”

Nick stayed silent, there was no point trying to get ahead of this conversation, too many things were beyond his experience.

Carol was holding a different folder, but had always been holding it.

Nick was starting to get irritated by the constant rearranging of reality. How are you supposed to follow the flow of a new experience and the discussion around it if it ceased to be new and became habit while you were doing it?

“Well, Nick, according to our lists that power of yours is suitable for a very interesting opportunity.” Carol paused, just waiting for him to ask what it was.

Nick stayed quiet, gesturing with his eyes for her to go on.

Carol smiled wider.

Nick tilted his head.

Carol leaned back slightly, tapping the folder with a finger.

Nick raised an eyebrow.

Carol glanced at what she was pointing to and let out a little “Hmm.”

Nick knew this had got ridiculous, but felt compelled to not give up.

Carol sighed.

Nick felt bad for her, she was trying to help him and he was being an arse.

They both spoke at the same time. Their voices blending together and neither hearing what the other had to say.

They both stopped speaking.

They both opened their mouths.

Snapped them shut together so the other could speak.

Nick wanted to laugh, they had gotten themselves caught into a cycle of politeness, both wanting to give the other their chance to speak.

The half starts, the awkward coughs, the small, embarrassed gestures of “No, you, please.” went on and on. There was no escaping from it.

Not by being conventional at least.

Nick attempted a backflip.

He failed.

“My goodness, are you ok, Nick?” Carol sounded worried.

“Absolutely fine. I’m dead, remember. But I had to do something to break the loop.”

“And that was your first choice?”

“Less a choice, more an impulse. It’s worked though.” Nick stood up.

Carol grinned, a full smile of actual emotion “Yes, it did, didn’t it?”

“So, I’ll stop being a prat. What’s this opportunity?“

“Well, you’re fuelled by anger, which means you are eligible to become a Named Spirit. This is actually very exciting.”

“What’s a Named Spirit?” The basics were obvious, but he was going to need more details.

Carol settled into her seat “Well, let me describe some more of the divisions first, it might help to understand. So, nearly all individuals in the pro-active Post-Life evaluation are restricted to a specific area of operations.”

“Can we do away with the jargon, please? Just speak to me plainly.” Nick begged.

“Of course. So, ghosts haunt specific things. Some might be tied to an object, and everywhere that object goes, they go with it. We most often see this with murder victims, they tend to get attached to the murder weapon.”

“Make’s sense, I suppose.”

“Yes. Then there are those that haunt a place. Their home, the site of their death, where they are buried. That type of thing.”

“I get the feeling that that is the most common result.”

Carol nodded “Yes, its the easiest thing to do. Plus, it gives you some continuity. There’s not the unknown of where your object might go next. Those who haunt objects tend to be angrier, more likely to cause trouble.”

Nick nodded, agreeing but unsure why. It just sounded right.

“Then there are those who haunt a person. That is almost as rare as what we can offer you. It is also the most dangerous, because if you don’t solve your own crisis of decision before that person dies, then you can be stuck in the Queue until the end of time. We know of a few people that has happened to.” Carol looked sad at the thought.

Nick was alarmed by her last little tidbit “Wait, how do you know that people have been stuck in the Queue for eternity. Time is still going on. Isn’t it? How long have I been here?”

“Ah,” Carol looked embarrassed “I didn’t explain that to you, did I? I’m so sorry, it appears you are my first ever client. I hadn’t realised.”

“How do you not realise that?”

“Well, its because I’ve dealt with so many others.” She explained.

Nick felt a headache brewing. That was impressive, apart from the heat from his anger, it was the first physical sensation he had experienced since leaving or joining the Queue.

“Maybe explain that before my eyeballs explode in confusion.” Nick suggested.

“Yes, yes. Well, this place is beyond and without time. So things don’t necessarily happen in what you would call order, they more happen when they are needed. Does that help?”

“Not really.”

“I will be so good at this. I think this conversation is why i studied about it so hard for my future clients.”

“The ones you’ve already seen.”

“Now you’re getting it.” She beamed.

He wasn’t, but he didn’t think he could take much more of this. Time was screwy here. He’d just go with that.

“Sorry, Carol, I’ve derailed the conversation again. You were explaining what a Named Spirit is.”

“But I already have.” Nick stared at her, feeling that brain burn from screwy time coming back. Then she laughed “I’m sorry, Nick. Just a joke.”

He really wanted to set her desk on fire again for that, but the unknown Security kept his impulse at bay.

“Named Spirits are the ones of legend. The ones that you hear about. They operate on specific parameters.”

“Jargon.”

“Sorry. Have you heard of Unwed Mary? Jenny O’Plenty? Miku Miku? Bloody Mary? The Candyman?”

“Isn’t the Candyman from a film?”

“Based on a book. But he operates under the same rules a Named Spirit does. Quite simply, a Named Spirit responds to fixed events. They are summoned or appear when certain things happen. They can go practically anywhere in the world where those conditions are met. They may even have different names depending on the country. Of course, most choose to remain in the country of their birth or death as they understand the language.”

“So, they are vengeful? Acting out of anger at something?” Nick thought he was getting the hang of the rules.

“Not necessarily.” Carol shot that down “They can act altruistically if they choose. Or maybe they make Faustian bargains. It is entirely down to the Named Spirit. Should you choose that path, we will draw up a code of conduct and you will sign a contract agreeing to adhere to the terms.”

“And if I were to break that contract and code of conduct?” Nick asked, fairly certain of the answer.

“Then we send in Security to retrieve you. Based on what clause you break, your punishment could be permanent reassignment to the Queue. Straight to a randomly chosen anti-paradise or a stern talking to from your advisor. Which would be me.”

This was definitely interesting. Nick had been anything but rare in life. Single, mid 30’s, working in an office. Drinks with the boys. Occasional dates. Lots of swearing at teenagers and kids in online games. Being rare would be nice.

“So, does a Named Spirit have to react to every instance of the parameters? If so, I’d imagine Bloody Mary would be constantly on the move.”

Carol chuckled “No, they are free to pick and choose. I’m told Mary is very nice to talk to when she’s not working.”

This was too tempting.

That stopped him short.

Tempting. Temptation.

Was this some sort of test?

His expression must have betrayed his thoughts because Carol said “This choice is not a test as to your fate regarding paradise or not. Being a Named Spirit does not count against you.”

Nick grinned “Do I get to pick my own name?”

© Robert Spalding 2020

Story 22 – Postcards from Brenda

Postmark 11th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Mum,

Jane and I arrived safely this morning.

The train journey was fine.

The sky here is so blue, its very nice.

Butlins is very big, lots of people around. Not explored yet.

I bought a big bundle of postcards, like you said. I will let you know how we get on.

Love Brenda

Postmark 11th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Jane, 

The bloody train was horrible, packed with people coming down here for the sun too.

Mary spent the whole journey telling dirty jokes, you should have see the looks we got from nosy old biddies.

This place is huge, but with the sun out there’s lots of lads with their shirts off.

Mum made me buy a load of these postcards and sent me with a big book of stamps to keep her updated. I’ve got more than I need for the fortnight, so I thought I’d send you lots too.

Just to make you jealous.

Ha Ha.

Bren

Postmark 12th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Mum,

Our chalet is nice.

The sun is still shining.

I enjoyed the food in the restaurant last night.

We missed the band last night because we were tired, but hope to see them tonight.

Love Brenda

Postmark 12th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Jane,

Well, Mary works fast.

No sooner did we put our bags in the chalet than she’s met a couple of lads an they’ve invited us down the beach.

So we spent last night on the beach getting merry, as Mum calls it, with them. Fred and Tim they were.

Pretty boys, but dull.

Mary lost interest in them too, but they had drinks, so we stayed a while.

Doubt we’ll bother with them today.

Bren

Postmark 13th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Mum,

The band was very good last night.

We had a lot of fun in the outdoor pool yesterday.

We are having a good time.

Love Brenda

Postmark 13th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Jane,

Well, Mary had a lot of fun in the outdoor pool yesterday, with Tim of all people! Apparently he’s nicer than I give him credit for.

I can’t be doing with Fred though.

The sky is still so blue here, its like a painting. I can’t see how people get bored of this and want to go home.

I could stay here much longer than we’re supposed to. Bound to be a job in town.

I’m definitely thinking about it.

Bren

Postmark 14th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Mum,

Mary has made plenty of friends here.

I’ve found a few people to chat to.

Still lovely weather.

Haven’t won a game yet, but I’m trying!

Love Brenda

Postmark 14th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Jane,

Can you believe it? Mary’s only gone and got herself smitten with that Tim!

I have to find my own entertainment. And all the games they play here are so silly that I don’t want to by myself.

I think I will take myself off into town. Have a walk along the beach.

The pier is supposed to be nice.

It will give me a chance to have a look at the locals at least, see if I can find some more reasons to stay.

Ha!

Bren

Postmark 15th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Mum,

I have made some new friends, we have had fun swimming.

Tonight we are all going dancing.

Love Brenda

Postmark 15th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Jane,

Well, going in to town was a good idea.

I met a man called George who is staying in one of the B&Bs.

Oh, he’s lovely. Really well spoken and he’s got this car, a BMW, its dead fancy.

Mary’s off with Tim again, so I’m going back into town and George says he’ll take me for dinner.

I think he might be a banker, he’s got the togs and looks posh.

Forget what I said about staying here.

I’m going to run away with him.

Ha Ha

Bren

Postmark 18th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Mum,

Have been having a nice time being shown around the town by some locals I met.

The pier is very nice.

The water is lovely and cool when you go in.

The sky is still picture perfect.

Love Brenda

Postmark 18th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Jane,

George is so nice. He says he’s going to take me on a picnic tomorrow.

Apparently he knows a nice secluded bit of woodland.

Mary is still off with Tim, she doesn’t tell me where she is half the time.

I have not spent much time with her since Tuesday.

I think I’ll wear that green dress, you know the one.

Bren

Postmark 18th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Mum,

Still sunny.

Food is great.

I came close to winning yesterday, maybe today.

Love Brenda.

Postmark 18th June 1962 – Bognor Regis

Jane,

Just a quick one.

George told me to bring everything with me. I think we might be going somewhere else after.

He’s is picking me up in a bit. I’m looking forward to riding in his car with the top down.

The car’s top, not mine.

Although…

Bren

Postmark 25th June 1962 – Angmering

Mum,

I’m Sorry.

Love Brenda

Postmark 25th June 1962 – Angmering

Jane,

He wasn’t as nice as I thought.

He took me to the woods, carrying the picnic basket.

When we got there, he did it.

Then he just left me.

I don’t think I can come home.

Bren

Postmark 3rd July 1962 – Worthing

Jane,

The sea seems different here.

I feel lost.

I’m sure Mary came home without me.

I couldn’t let her see me. I could not go back to Bognor.

Don’t worry about me. Look after my Mum, please.

Bren

Postmark 16th July 1962 – Brighton

Jane,

I saw George, he was in his car with another girl. She looks a bit like me, she had the same hair as I did.

I’m going to try to find her. See if I can help her.

Bren

Postmark 20th July 1962 – Hurstpierpoint

Jane,

I found the girl.

Her name is Samantha, she’s really nice.

George did the same thing to her.

We got lost in the woods but finally found a town.

Bren

Postmark 21st September 1962 – Horsham

Jane,

Samantha decided to move on. I miss her. She said she wants her Mum, I understand that.

But I have to follow George. I can’t let him do this again.

I miss you all.

Bren

Postmark 28th December 1962 – Twickenham

Jane,

I found him again.

I don’t think he is a banker at all. I think he’s a salesman.

I met Sandra but she went soon after.

Looks like he has a type, she looked like me too.

I hope you all managed to have a nice Christmas.

Bren

Postmark 20th February 1963 – Gillingham

Jane,

I got close enough that he saw me this time.

Ha!

That gave him a shock.

He drove off so fast he nearly hit another car.

I was too late to stop him doing it to Elizabeth, but she says she wants to help me. 

So I’ve got a travelling companion again.

Its nice not to be alone anymore.

Bren

Postmark 17th April 1963 – Margate

Jane,

We stopped him this time!

Elizabeth and I found him while he was talking to this girl on the beach.

We knew he meant to do the same to her because of how she looked, same hair as us.

Don’t know her name.

As soon as he saw us coming, he ran away without a by-your-leave.

She looked confused.

But that’s better than the other.

Bren

Postmark 30th August 1963 – Southampton

Jane,

Elizabeth has had enough.

She’s happy we saved that girl but is frustrated we can’t find him again.

She says she will stay with me tonight, but then she’s going.

I don’t blame her.

But I am very sad.

Love to you all.

Bren

Postmark 5th March – Angmering

Jane,

He was back in Bognor.

He took her to the same place he took me.

I was so angry.

At least she got away.

He didn’t

Bren

Postmark 9th March 1964 – Chichester

Jane,

I saw in the papers that they found me.

Sorry if that gave you a fright. The postcards and stamps were in my bag and I felt better writing to you.

Tell Mary it wasn’t her fault.

At least that girl, Trudy, led them back.

George didn’t stay long. Wasn’t given much choice.

The things that took him, they made me shudder.

Tell Mum I love her.

I think I’ll go now. 

Love, Bren

© Robert Spalding 2020

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